2024-01-05 19:13:07 ¶ ● ⬈

bigfreakinfrog:

> in lots of fics we get elias as the instigator, the one who desires, the one who falls first, and i can see how its very natural seeing him as obsessive and in love with jon since jon is his whole plan

> but im really interested in an elias who is extremely closed off. yes hes interested in jon. but like how one might study a particularly rare book. or an interesting bug. he has walls around his true self a mile thick. he doesnt let people get close. everytime you think youre his friend you realize hes still keeping his distance emotionally

> I want a jon who is taking a chisel to those walls and trying to get through and elias who tolerates it cause he doesnt think anyone will be able to break through. he doesnt think anyone can get to see who he really is deep down. doesnt think anyone *wants* to.

> jon who is so fucking determined to break through those walls and find out who elias really is and with every little piece he unearths he falls more in love