he prays to nothing, no one, nobody no more

2023-11-25 14:47:26 ¶ ●

in other news im thinking about my (very very vague) portal jonelias au again

#jon as glados elias as chell #jon trying oh so very hard to be human and telling himself its because elias' test scores improve when he does #elias splorin the rest of the facility during his downtime #jon getting robot separation anxiety over not being able to see his (most beloved) best test subject #jon pretends the facility is still functional and the scientists are just doing other things but elias knows the truth #elias is just trying to find his robot boy so they can talk #and so he can kiss jon ofc #i also have some vague thoughts about. okay so #in portal 2 its revealed that successful tests are coded to be enjoyable or euphoric to the bot in charge of the facility #except that it lessens with each successful test and theyll slowly start to go mad trying to figure out how to get it back #glados ofc manages to (mainly) keep her cool even w/o this and jon does too obviously #but i have some thoughts about elias like. altering jon's code #im not entirely sure how elias ended up in the facility in the first place but im probably going to give him engineering / programming #skills (probably both) #so that he can alter jons body or his code #(mainly so that i can circumvent all of the fucked up shit but also for sex purposes) #elias: hey can i take a look at your code i wanna get rid of some of your limitations #jon: i think i hauve covid #also thinking about the eroticism of the machine. jon being able to feel everything that happens in the facility #(in the parts of the facility he can reach anyway) #he can feel elias fixing faulty wiring he can feel elias moving through the halls #he can feel elias touching panels etc etc #i imagine jon would be very much like 'im physically incapable of feeling affection for test subjects i am not defective im not broken #its fine' #rlly strugglign to grapple w/ his purpose as an unfeeling inhuman machine and the human parts of him that want to be expressed 4 notes