i am notoriously a big fan of “jonah magnus did not enjoy being the pupil” but also there is something very important about “jonah magnus did not enjoy being a human” too. i know it’s just a silly little headcanon, but to me, he was otherkin, and being an avatar was the closest he could get to feeling like himself. being an avatar is always about fulfillment, it’s always about filling an empty space within your soul, it’s always about getting what the world has denied you.
and there’s something uniquely tragic about the idea that being the pupil wasn’t what jonah wanted, it was just the closest alternative. it was the best he could get. imagine the closest you can get to a state that actually feels like you is just being reduced to an extension of something that doesn’t even care about you. and it’s torture, but to someone who has never felt human at all, it’s the closest thing to a victory he’ll ever get.