Do you have any end avatar Jonah thoughts? His relationship with death is so important to me...aghh especially the suicidal but desperately not wanting to die dichotomy

i think about how he directly led his regency pals into death specifically at the hands of the entities. if you have a headcanon of jonah having an end encounter as a child (which i do!) you could interpret this as him attempting to feed them to the end / to the entities in general as to not be fed on himself. the end was probably a subject of fascination for him for a long time, fuelling him towards the eye, which makes him into an instrument of death via his immortality. the worst kind of death too, not living dead but dead living.

we don’t see anything of jonah after he does his first bodyhop up until richard mendelson who was around in at least the 1960s that’s a solid >100 years of fuckinf around and finding out. how many people died from him or because of him or for him? like lambs to slaughter.

and that’s not even touching on the people he’s cared about (if he can, or ever did), who he had to watch die. if you’re a lonelyeyes enjoyer you can make this about the lukases. i am not a lonelyeyes enjoyer so i have no thoughts about that.

even jonah isn’t alive, not really. he can’t run forever, and his living isn’t really a life at all. his current body isn’t alive and he himself is a desiccated corpse in the panopticon. like i said, not living dead but dead living. and he’s had to kill himself over and over; go to his own funeral, receive his own will, destroy his own body so nobody notices the missing eyes. do you think jonah considers himself to be alive?

and all of that is to say nothing about the fact that jonah literally gave the entire world and also the entities themselves to the end