two-pupils:

does beholding legitimately “"like”“ jon better than jonah or is that just fanon?

From what I’ve seen it’s mostly fanon - I didn’t finish S5 though, which is AFAIK where most of the fanon comes from, so I might be wrong. Mostly what I’ve seen has mostly been "lol Jonah served Beholding for so long and it just let Jon smite avatars and kill Jonah like it was nothing”, and sometimes even “Beholding was mad at Jonah for using it”. I think there’s slight textual support but it’s another one of those like, Sasha showing the slightest modicum of intelligence and the fandom deciding she’s the mum friend.