2024-07-18 16:34:25 ¶ ● ⬈

justicewasserved:

> so I see a lot of people going “hahaha wild that Jon thinks everything (such as the apocalypse) is his fault when it REALLY isn’t” and they would be correct but I keep thinking about why it is that he’s like that. I think a lot of people simply put it down to “that’s just how he is as a person” when I really think it’s more of a combination between personality, how he was brought up (not that well) and the web.

> in mag 81 he’s never that specific about what his grandmother was like, and is very clearly trying to make her sound better than she actually is. but to me it sounds like she instilled a feeling that any and all problems that occurred throughout his childhood was his fault, or made worse by him. I’m thinking something like “I’m feeling so bad right now because I have to pick you up from school every day.” and if she did do this, clearly it worked because he is, in his statement as an adult, retroactively pinning the blame for all his childhood problems on himself for being a “deeply annoying child”. I really think that it’s not normal to think you are to blame for someone else bullying you and that it was probably caused by his grandmother making him think he caused everyone’s problems.

> the mr spider event shocked him in a lot of ways but one of the main things that shook him was that he felt like he could’ve prevented what happened and he could’ve saved the guy’s life. obviously this is ridiculous - it’s clear to us that the web pulled him down the exact path which would lead someone else to interrupt his reading and get captured themselves. however Jon does not know this and clearly thinks he should’ve done better. I think that this, along with his upbringing, started the distinct way of thinking that he has where he decides that everything is his fault.

> the web knew this would happen and then utilises it to make sure his crushing sense of responsibility causes him to get all 14 marks and then to, unwillingly, play his part in removing the fears from the universe.