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thedistortionsno1simp-deactivat:

Jon feels so…not conventionally attractive? Like at all


I don’t not know how to explain this but something about how this man acts feels very much like “I was bullied for my looks and I have never seen them in a positive light since.” Like I hear him talk and I’m just like “Yeah no, the little self worth he has is not his looks.” Also it feels like he partially tries to make up for that by sacrificing his own safety over and over again and trying to be ‘useful’. Like it’s a very small part of why he’s does that and I could go on and on about how little he values himself and how he copes with his depression throughout the different seasons but that’s a topic for another day.

Also I need people to understand I’m not saying this purely because of his low self worth. Martin has low self worth at the beginning but even then it doesn’t feel like he hates how he looks. Martin always feels very neutral towards his own appearance even though it’s never brought up. Basira feels like she’s like pretty. Like when she entered the podcast, something about her FELT pretty, something about her was like conventionally attractive woman right here. Daisy doesn’t feel as (conventionallly) pretty but I feel like she’s gotten a few compliments here and there at the very least. Jon doesn’t feel like that. He feels like someone who in their teen years cried themselves to sleep because of how they looked. He sounds like someone who at best feels neutral towards mirrors and on his worst days, doesn’t look at them. Was this hinted at? No. Is it probably me self projecting on my favourite character?…Maybe. But it was just a random thought and as an unconventionally attractive person, I just felt something. Alsoooo

  1. I’M NOT SUGGESTING THIS COS HE’S ACE. I think he’s ace cos he’s just ace. His looks have nothing to do with it
  2. I’m not saying Jon is the most ugly thing to grace the earth. I’m saying he’s not up to beauty standards and that is perfectly fine. Beauty standards are toxic and stupid anyways.
  3. Also it would be very cute to think of Martin just cuddling with him and telling him that he thinks Jon is beautiful. Not like completely trying to fix his self image but just reassuring him some very few times when Jon can’t suppress the insecurities.