We don’t talk enough about how Jon legitimately thought everyone he knew that was still alive or that he ostensibly cared about wished he had stayed dead after the Unknowing. And by enough I mean we stop every so often to sleep and that’s TOO MUCH.
Georgie told him she didn’t think him waking up was a second chance. Basira didn’t answer him at all when he flat out asked if she was disappointed he woke up. Melanie tried to kill him again. And when he tried to get through to Martin by pointing out that he was alive, Martin replied in a way that was worded as though Martin would make sure he stayed dead the next time.
I’m sorry, but if that were me, and I had accepted becoming even more of a monster in order to save those very people and the world itself, I’d probably also do some terrible things just to feel like maybe it was worth it :|
Like, namely, non consensual surgery or throwing myself into the Buried or feeding on trauma so I don’t die again, no matter how everyone else wants me to.
