Thinking about the lack of agency Jon has even in the meta. Thinking about how Jon isn’t even referred to as Jon in the transcripts. Thinking about how people want to boil Jon down to an addiction metaphor and power dynamics. Thinking about how it’s revealed Jon’s entire life was controlled by the Web and people still act like he could’ve prevented anything. Thinking about how the fandom can’t stand to think of Jon as being a victim using whatever tools he has to stop being victimized. Thinking about how Jon wouldn’t be able to know peace in sleep as much as his victims didn’t no matter what he fucking got out of it. Thinking about how Jon intimately felt every moment of terror every statement giver did that then expanded to the entire world and he STILL wanted to end it no matter how ‘right’ it felt. Thinking about how Jon was consistently torn down and we never actually knew the real him. Not until the very end. Thinking about Jonathan Sims and how nothing he did was ever good enough.
dathen:
It just struck me that Georgie both encouraged Jon to talk to Martin to forge an anchor that will help him stay grounded in his humanity—
—And also encouraged Martin to cut Jon off because he brought all his pain on himself and just wants others to suffer.
inklingofadream:
The way in which the Anatomy Studernts in MAG 34: Anatomy Class are clearly meant by the narrative to be seen as exclusively frightening and threatening, yet feel sympathetic to many audience members (especially those who are neurodivergent) presages the way in which TMA ultimately sees Jon as unsympathetic, causing dissatisfaction with the ending in many of those same audience members, in this essay I will
Thinking about how Jon was shamed for not wanting to die. Thinking about how when he told Daisy he’d rather be trapped in the bury instead of dead all she said was “that’s messed up” and he just laughed. Thinking about how Jon trying everything to not fucking die was used to parallel him to Jonah fucking Magnus as a character defect instead of just him being barely 30 and NOT WANTING TO DIE. Thinking about Jon and how in the end he was denied that final rest when he decided he wanted it.
