May 2022

somuchbetterthanthat:

Thinking of Jon’s last words for Jonah… His justification being for gertrude, Sasha and Tim… Not Jon. Not the entire world (well, you could count the world in “all the others” I suppose). Thinking on how this rings of this being so personal for Jon, in a way his previous stance (what he’s doing rn literally means he’s dooming his loved ones and the world for other worlds) sort of contradicts.

I know S5 gives Jon that revenge arc that he doesn’t seem to enjoy as much as the narrative would like you to believe, and it would feel like the completion of that IF JON INCLUDED HIMSELF. He doesn’t. Here is the man who, out of all the others, excepted perhaps Annabelle, is the one who got him there. He was the one with the plan. He was the one who made Jon do the unthinkable. But Jon doesn’t talk of himself.

Jon talks about the deaths he feels guilty about (Sasha and Tim), the death that started him on the path of no return (Gertrude) and the deaths that live inside his head, all the time (”all the others”).

I don’t know exactly where I’m going with this, but I can’t help but think it’s Jon killing not Jonah, but killing What He has Become, in a very metaphorical way. I can’t help but feel like this is Jon putting a knife into a mirror, because that’s what he believes he sees, when he stares at Jonah.

(…In another possible S5, where we learn more about Jonah’s own descent into evil, that image would be. wow.) 

…To be clear, I still think if there was any moment for Jon to say “for me” or something that like that, that was it. Or, on the contrary, having Jonah being like “is that all for you?” because he cannot imagine complete selflessness to this degree, and Jon being like “no, for all the others” to show the difference between who he was at the beginning of the journey, and what he’s decided now, could have worked as well (and show, again, the inherent differences between them both –)

anyway. One day i’m going stop trying to think of S5. But, mmh. Today’s not the day. S5 should have had more Jonah. Yes, i’m biased.

saintbleeding:

the real question is will there ever come a day in my life where i am not rotating jom “sad wet paper bag of a human being” sims in my head