seemed like a good idea at the time

2024-01-12 5:48:37 ¶ ●

Back in whenever season 8 of Supernatural was airing. I had a. I suppose a ‘come to Jesus’ moment? I was spending most of my time here on tumblr scrolling and reading meta and blah blah blah and I got SO. ANGRY. At the amount of Sam-hate. From the show. From the fans. Etc. And it all came to a head when one Thursday night I got so angry for a good few moments I saw pink. Almost red. And I nearly passed out. When that happened I stepped outside of my room, paced the house, and then deleted and unfollowed anything I ever reblogged or blog I followed that had to do with Supernatural. The moment that happened I realized how much it took over and affected my life.

I’ve had the same feelings with regard to The Magnus Archives and Jon. Both due to the fans and the show. Multiple times. Yet for some reason. I cannot escape. I haven’t listened to the podcast in ages, and yet I still check in on blogs that I KNOW make me filled with rage. And I have no idea why. Cause I know it’s not healthy. And it’s not really the same? It’s not consuming my life. I do other things. I care and am involved in other things that aren’t fandom. I have friends. An actual life. Not like then. So it’s not as bad. It’s just. I don’t understand why I can’t move on, y’know? I don’t understand why I don’t WANT to move on. It’s not even that good a podcast ffs.

I don’t know. We have The Magnus Protocol next week. And I’m not holding my breath that Jon isn’t going to be the root cause of all the problems the new characters go through. I’d put money on it.

2024-01-14 7:27:54 ¶ ●

You are so miserable every other post of yours is just you talking about how much you hate the community and the main piece itself

Correct!

I hope I was added to your blocklist. I don’t want you to be as miserable as I am.

Enjoy the next series!

2024-01-23 1:29:53 ¶ ● ⬈

underratedgrapeju1ce:

“you swore to me, you bastard!”

2024-01-25 23:53:44 ¶ ●

Jon’s corruption arc wasn’t cut and dry? One of the major themes of the show and s4 n s5 in particular was that the lines between human n avatar, victim n victimised etc were extremely blurry. He as a character wasn’t created to be vilified idk what show you listened to but I don’t think it was tma lmao

They…… they had his boyfriend……. call him the antichrist………. behind his back…………????? Am I missing where that’s funny???

2024-01-28 9:01:08 ¶ ● ⬈

strawberryjamsara:

I know it’s seen as a source of comedy in the TMA fandom how Jon thought Martin was gonna kill him because he showed him basic human concern, but when you think about it for more than a minute, it becomes depressing.
Jon grew up with his last parental figure left resenting him, and not wanting to deal with him. To the point he thinks he DESERVED his childhood bullies treatment of him for being annoying. He spent a day wandering around town and almost died, but we don’t really have any word of his grandma being concerned about him, or asking where the hell he’d been. The fact he sees Martin come in to his office offering tea and asking if he’s doing well, and that ringing alarm bells he has some ulterior motives feels less like just being oblivious to a crush when you know that he has always been treated like a burden to the point he’s internalized it as just him not being worth the time.