Thinking about the lack of agency Jon has even in the meta. Thinking about how Jon isn’t even referred to as Jon in the transcripts. Thinking about how people want to boil Jon down to an addiction metaphor and power dynamics. Thinking about how it’s revealed Jon’s entire life was controlled by the Web and people still act like he could’ve prevented anything. Thinking about how the fandom can’t stand to think of Jon as being a victim using whatever tools he has to stop being victimized. Thinking about how Jon wouldn’t be able to know peace in sleep as much as his victims didn’t no matter what he fucking got out of it. Thinking about how Jon intimately felt every moment of terror every statement giver did that then expanded to the entire world and he STILL wanted to end it no matter how ‘right’ it felt. Thinking about how Jon was consistently torn down and we never actually knew the real him. Not until the very end. Thinking about Jonathan Sims and how nothing he did was ever good enough.