Something I wasn’t expecting to cry at today
Jon s3 ep 1: there were some people who suffered worse and were less deserving than me.
Like Jon you were 8 you did not deserve that
every decision jon makes in the entire show can be traced back to this too. he was traumatized, invalidated, and made to feel unwanted for basically his entire childhood.
why was he willing to trade his own pain and wellbeing for a scrap of information from jude that wasn’t even guaranteed to help?
why would he go to certain death in the coffin for a woman who tried to kill him?
why was he willing to go with michael?
well you see, he thinks he should have died at age 8, and has been trying to make up for that original sin of surviving since then.