levaagrace:

No but like it’s so infuriating how Jon is revealed to have been a literal puppet for the Web since he was eight and he doesn’t get to deal with that. All his actions were his own but were they? We’re they really? Or was he just molded into the type of person who would blindly help cause the end of the world while trying to save it? Was he actually someone who willingly watched his bully get eaten by the thing that would’ve eaten him or was he just a fucking eight year old. Was he actually power hungry or was he just scared of being powerless. Who would he have been and what choices would he have made without being coerced or traumatized. We won’t ever know and that drives me insane. Because even with all he did do, so much of what we saw was him trying desperately to do good. And he gets demonized by everyone and everything around him for things he can’t control and for things he can but won’t. I honestly don’t know if I’ll ever get over just how pathetic and sad Jon is and how he died for someone who didn’t even have the courtesy to pretend like he thought he was still himself. Until he gave in. Because that was Jon. Giving in because the alternative was pain.