just thinking about how jon literally decided to kill the world to starve the fears because he was so thoroughly dehumanized and reviled by everyone around him because of what they made him into that even the possibility of someone else becoming as hated and guilty as him for the same reasons was UNCONSCIONABLE. was worse than planetary extinction. he would rather take all that guilt and hatred for ending humanity than PASS IT ON TO ANYONE ELSE and have it on his conscious. it would’ve killed him. he could handle anything but knowing he caused someone to be tortured and destroyed like him.

they can never make me see you as a power hungry monster, jon.

never.