2025-11-25 23:54:53 ¶ ● ⬈

martinblackwoodhaterfan:

> Heyy so you know how Jon keeps losing everything he has. His friends. His family. His personal belongings. Parts of his body. Parts of himself. You know how Martin has always kept everyone at a comfortable distance. How he’s grown accustomed to the feeling of alienation he feels inside.

> What if. Being together brings them comfort. Because they know that eventually, one day, they will both leave. Martin will disappear. He’ll distance himself so far from everything that troubles him that he’ll be too far for Jon to reach out to. Jon will turn away. The guilt, the hunger, the profound sense of otherness will consume him and he will seek a place to hide like an animal feeling its end drawing near. The distance between them will grow so large they won’t be able to reach out and pull each other close once again. And they will be left with nothing one more time. Just as it always had been.

> The moment Jon and Martin got in a relationship they both saw only its inevitable end. Every gesture, every word tainted with the feeling that this won’t last. Let’s hold hands for as long as we can, because we both know we want to let go.