2025-10-14 17:18:29 ¶ ●

The thing is that Jon has a WEIRD amount of resilience. Like yeah sure he mentions nightmares and being constantly afraid and the physical therapy and stitches and it’s all. Very briefly touched on. His trauma. Both mental and physical. To the point that by season four he’s actively self harming with no repercussions. And he’s annoyed by that.

I mean. It makes sense both in and out of podcast. No story if your protagonist is incapable of doing shit because they’re completely broken. His physical fortitude isn’t entirely human and his mental fortitude is part of why he was chosen to be the Archive. And that’s not even bringing in that there’s genuinely no real time for him to process anything. So I’m not like. Questioning or calling out anything this time.

It’s just. Something to note that I think is part of why no one really CARED. Jon comes back from that month and brushes it off to Martin after telling Melanie he was kidnapped in the same way you would tell someone you were in a different country. So why would they go any further in asking him about it? He makes a joke TO his kidnappers on his second (third?) time and they get fucking. Drinks at a bar together. I don’t even know if he mentions Julia and Trevor outside of saying he stumbled into them? Then there’s the coma and all their reactions and he only has the wherewithal to be annoyed by missing pens and clothes. Never brought up again outside of like. Those first four episodes. Melanie fucking walks in on him chopping off his finger and we hear pained sounds but mostly he’s annoyed by it not causing actual damage. So why would she do anything but help him accomplish his goal of removing a part of himself? Then there’s the eyepocalypse and his oscillating between being devastated and empowered. I guess when you’re so used to someone being blasé about their own pain, you’d start to think they enjoy it. And maybe when all you know is pain it kind of does become a pleasure.

I. Have no idea where I was going with this. Just thinking about compartmentalization and dissociation. I guess.