Can’t remember if I ever brought this over from my main blogs drafts but…

Wild how Jon flat out says ‘the possibility of me dying is better than sticking around here and becoming worse’. Wild how Martin points out it could kill him. Wild how both those things, then Martin berates him for having a survival instinct. Despite previously berating him about NOT HAVING A SURVIVAL INSTINCT. Which he then proceeds to continue to flip flop between being catty about how Jon does or does not care about his survival. Because. As we all know. Being suicidal is bad. But wanting to live… is also bad.

I note here that this ‘“bad”’ type of living is… bad… because it is at the detriment of other people. In which case suicide is then good? As dead people can’t exploit others? But realizing that’s your only option and attempting to follow through is bad because… I don’t know, that’s as far as this draft got.

Whatever, I’m just posting this and being annoyed that there’s genuinely nothing Jon could have done in any direction that wouldn’t make people call him a selfish, egotistical monster.