What sucks is that, logically, I don’t think Jon did nothing wrong. He did make bad choices and he did do all those awful things and justified them with flimsy excuses and he was an egocentric dick at times. Logically, I can accept the other characters’ lack of empathy and sympathy towards him as clashing personalities and traumatic experiences coloring their perceptions and consequences for his own actions. I can understand on a purely non-subjective level that some of the things that were done to him were due to his choices. Beyond that I can also be fully aware that it is a HORROR podcast and the bad things that happen as a result of bad decisions is the POINT.
But I am not a logical person. I am emotional and reactive and put too much of myself and my experiences into my view of media. It’s not fair and while it doesn’t actually affect my life it’s also unhealthy. I’ve spent so much of my life justifying my own existence that it’s hard not to do so with every little thing, including liking a fictional character and not wanting to have to make caveats for why I like them.
Idk. I guess my point here is that I do like Jon because he’s done awful things but still tries to be a good person even though everything is against him, even his very nature. And I hate when people deny that and simplify it as him just being a Bad Person who made Bad Choices because he wanted to.