“jon and martin aren’t boring” this. “jon and martin are toxic” that. “jon and martin are sooooo fucked up for-”
*extremely loud buzzer*
ANYWAY lets talk about jon and daisy
what if you tried to kill me because i violated your autonomy and gave you endless nightmares. what if i was terrified of you as we were forced to work together. what if i was terrified of myself. what if i became what you tried to kill. what if the relief i felt at your death was overshadowed by the relief i felt knowing you weren’t dead and could give someone who also wanted me dead the gift of your survival. what if i thought saving you would ensure my death, whether by your hands or not. what if you decided i was someone you could become better with because you decided you were wrong. what if you were wrong about being wrong. what if, even after my faults were revealed, you still tried to do better and help me be better. what if this meant you lost yourself. what if you tried to kill me again but this time it didn’t matter. what if i wanted you to recognize me as anything other than prey because you were the only one who TRULY SAW ME.
…or…
what if i tried to kill you because most of my life i got away with extra-judiciously killing people i deemed monsters. what if i didn’t get away with it. what if i planned on still killing you but instead i was stuck with the weight of everything i did and found myself lacking. what if you came in to save me because you hoped i would kill you. what if i forgot why i thought you deserved to die in the first place. what if we tried to be better together but there was no real trust between us because a part of you still expected to die by my hands and a part of me still wanted you dead. what if you were weak and failed and i didn’t care because i knew what i did was no better. what if I couldn’t find it in myself to blame you. what if i still tried despite your failure. what if, in the end, you helped show me what really needed saving and protection AND IT WASN’T MYSELF.
anyway, your honor, in conclusion, i plead insanity
Angry about the fact that Jon being tortured for a month was made out to be a joke and was essentially a reference to fucking Silence of the Lambs and that lovely transphobic bullshit again.
Hahahah isn’t it highLAIReous that he was gagged and tied up and moisturized and violated routinely for a month while no one knew or cared and when he comes back they bitch about him being gone instead of even talking about WHY he was gone and nah of course that doesn’t matter they’re too busy with their own shit. Isn’t it the peak of comedy that he ends that month by trying to go through a door that he knows will kill him, like the one that he was supposed to die at the hands of when he was EIGHT FUCKING YEARS OLD, cause it was preferable to the last month he suffered through!
I’m choking on my laughter. My side is splitting.
But yeah no he was fine!!! Totally had no lasting repercussions!!! He joked about his skin, the one that was going to be flensed, being healthier than ever and later joking with another set of kidnappers about being kidnapped a third time not too long after!!! It was totes chill, yo!!! Cause he was well on his way to being a monster by then so it didn’t really matter!!! In fact, you should probably add him being totally fine as a sign of his inhumanity!!! Ignore the trauma, it just gets in the way of the REAL story, which is how he’s gladly going to end the world cause he’s NOT NORMAL!!!
