Thinking about how Martin’s status as an Avatar is wholly separate from himself. I’m directly talking about Also Martin. How, in order to show both Martin’s domain AND keep him the ‘human’ to Jon’s ‘monster’ they literally made another him. When we have no other indication that it was something other Avatars of any type did. And is pretty fucking antithetical to the Lonely as a concept. Martin completely denied the fact that he also perpetuated trauma and could CONTINUE TO DO SO because the one causing the trauma was physically an entirely different being.
Meanwhile Jon was literally puppetted as an eight year old and his paranoia at possibly having his autonomy taken from him AGAIN as an adult was laughed at and a sign of him deflecting blame.
Whatever. Dunno why I’m annoyed. I’m sure it was supposed to show that he denies culpability. And not. Y’know. Actually the show denying his culpability. I’m sure I’m just a dumb fucking idiot.
I really am gonna make that fic where Jon has my specific flavor of asexuality btw. Enough complaining about the aphobic smut people make about him, be the change you want to see in the world.
I really am gonna make that fic where Jon has my specific flavor of asexuality btw. Enough complaining about the aphobic smut people make about him, be the change you want to see in the world.
I love when people make him a weird little freak and ace at the same time. Bog slut for the win.
Did I ask for you to announce your weird fetish of making asexual characters fuck? No? Didn’t think so.
I really am gonna make that fic where Jon has my specific flavor of asexuality btw. Enough complaining about the aphobic smut people make about him, be the change you want to see in the world.
I love when people make him a weird little freak and ace at the same time. Bog slut for the win.
Did I ask for you to announce your weird fetish of making asexual characters fuck? No? Didn’t think so.
Bog slut is a creator on here. And freak doesn’t also mean sexual…
I don’t know who that is. And I don’t care to. And to me, in this very particular instance, it does. So maybe try different words that can’t be misconstrued by people you don’t know who didn’t ask for your opinion.
I really am gonna make that fic where Jon has my specific flavor of asexuality btw. Enough complaining about the aphobic smut people make about him, be the change you want to see in the world.
I love when people make him a weird little freak and ace at the same time. Bog slut for the win.
Did I ask for you to announce your weird fetish of making asexual characters fuck? No? Didn’t think so.
Also Ace people can have sex. There are multiple kinds of ace. Jon is not one of them, I agree, it says so explicitly in the podcast. But they do exist.
Yeah and people need to shut the fuck up about them.
Stop using them as an excuse to ignore real asexuals who actually are asexual and have never wanted to and will do everything they can to not have fucking sex. You weirdo with a non-con fetish.
one of the things that Gerry said fall under the domain of the Eye in MAG 111 is “the feeling that something, somewhere, is letting you suffer, just so it can watch” - but surely this goes for the reverse as well, which brings me to my main point:
I think that Jon’s specific personal hell in the eyepocalypse is this: being made to watch others suffer, unable to do anything substantial to help
like his formative traumatic experience with Mr Spider was much the same, even: he could only watch. (sidenote, this doesn’t negate his fear of manipulation and loss of agency, I think they intertwine because nothing is straightforward, but I’m focusing on one aspect here) all through the series, watching people in his nightmares - I don’t think he’s just a conduit that feeds others’ fear to the Eye, I think the Eye feeds on the fear and helplessness he feels when he’s made to watch as well. etc.
and then the eyepocalypse happens, and again, he can only watch as he’s trapped into reading the catalyst statement, and again, as he and Martin travel through the fearscape. e.g. the way making Jordan into a watcher doesn’t really help anyone. I’ve talked about how a main theme is “what do you do when the ability to make good choices is taken away from you” but I’ve never quite connected the way they can, at the end of the day, only watch others suffer to the Eye itself.
intrigued by your dissociative identity disorder jon….. 👀👀
so like full disclosure i do not have DID and its also less of a headcanon and more of just something to think about so don’t take anything i say as gospel.
HOWEVER
when that scene where Jon forgot he was at Martin’s birthday party happened I sort of just. stared at it like hmmmm. cause that was weird, right? obviously it was probably to remind everyone that Jon’s an egotistical dick who doesn’t think anything about anyone else and blah blah blah. but then I remembered that he lost an entire month, specifically a very traumatic month, and I’m also sure that was just time shenanigans and also to explain how he survived and wasn’t catatonic or whatever. y'know. AND THEN. UPTON HOUSE. and suddenly them not being too surprised he forgot the birthday party he info-dumped during seems a bit….. like an established pattern.
now, as we know, Jon had a traumatic childhood event. multiple, in fact, considering losing parents, even that young, is a trauma. and despite what everyone thinks, yes, Jon’s grandmother did resent him and neglected him and that’s abuse. ON TOP OF THE QUOTE UNQUOTE STANDARD BULLYING. BY SOMEONE TWICE HIS AGE. So. that’s also an establish pattern of trauma and abuse. for an extended period of time. during the time frame clinicians believe to be the when identity and personality forms and all that. and we have clear evidence that he likely never got any sort of help for anything about that childhood. cause. y'know. everything about him.
what i’m getting at is it’s interesting how many boxes Jon ticks for a dissociative disorder of any kind.
but also. when you think about it. its sort of. interesting. as well. how his biggest trauma, his raison d'etre, is… well, per the wiki… ’being controlled or trapped without knowing it, and your will not being your own, of being manipulated’…… very interesting, innit……
but all that’s conjecture. there’s no real evidence that he has DID. not even how shocking it is to go to “tell me if you see any good cows” from “but i don’t count martin, as he is unlikely to contribute anything but delays”. or the fact that his mental fortitude against the marks, the first one specifically, is part of why he was chosen in the first place. because he could see it and experience it and compartmentalize it. dare i say. archive it. and then MOVE. ON. without it completely destroying his psyche?
okay. sorry. this got out of hand. i now have a headache. so. yeah. uh… whoops. i accidentally. gave mental repercussions. beyond being a dick. for Jon’s trauma. and now he’s multiple people. to me.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
here’s one part of a fic i’ve written. and here’s some art of his alters.
Thinking about how Jon’s skin was going to be used for a ritual, and the moisturization was probably happening EVERYWHERE on his body, how he would’ve had to be nude for that to be the case, and how uncomfortable that probably was for him as an ace person.
Like obviously being forcibly moisturized by a sentient mannequin is a terrifying scenario for anyone, but with Jon specifically who’s already touch-avoidant and ace, being forced in a state of undress that he’d probably never want to be seen by anyone. Least of all the evil clown lady!!
Sigh. Can he please go to therapy I’m so so sad about him everyday.
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new coping mechanism just dropped called “projecting all my issues on my faves” Which unfortunately makes Jon Sims a BPD havin Alcoholic. fly high jon 😔
(no i do not care if it actually aligns with canon i am here to have FUN)
Do any of y’all get tired of insisting y’all’s fanon designs are in any way canon? To the point where it poisons others perceptions of the characters? It seems exhausting to me.
Chapters:
1/1
Fandom:
The Magnus Archives (Podcast)
Rating:
Mature
Warnings:
Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters:
Jonathan “Jon” Sims | The Archivist, Melanie King, Alice “Daisy” Tonner, Basira Hussain
Additional Tags:
Sex Talk, Canon Asexual Character, Sex-Repulsed Jonathan “Jon” Sims | The Archivist, super duper sex-repulsed, Author Projecting onto Jonathan “Jon” Sims | The Archivist, it actually only has to make sense to me for me to do it and I don’t feel like explaining it to anyone else
Summary:
“Oh my god,” Melanie laughs. “Are you for real?”
“Evidently,” he snipes. “So, if we’re done here-”
“There’s no way,” Basira interrupts. “Is it. Is it because you think you’re too good for him, for everyone, or something?”
—
or, Jon is sex-repulsed and it takes him being drunk to talk about it
Chapters:
1/1
Fandom:
The Magnus Archives (Podcast)
Rating:
Mature
Warnings:
Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters:
Jonathan “Jon” Sims | The Archivist, Melanie King, Alice “Daisy” Tonner, Basira Hussain
Additional Tags:
Sex Talk, Canon Asexual Character, Sex-Repulsed Jonathan “Jon” Sims | The Archivist, super duper sex-repulsed, Author Projecting onto Jonathan “Jon” Sims | The Archivist, it actually only has to make sense to me for me to do it and I don’t feel like explaining it to anyone else
Summary:
“Oh my god,” Melanie laughs. “Are you for real?”
“Evidently,” he snipes. “So, if we’re done here-”
“There’s no way,” Basira interrupts. “Is it. Is it because you think you’re too good for him, for everyone, or something?”
—
or, Jon is sex-repulsed and it takes him being drunk to talk about it
So I received a few comments on this that amount to saying that basically I purposefully misinterpret things people say and hold a lot of anger and it’s like. For one, if I misinterpret anything it’s because that’s what I see. Your intent does not matter in the slightest if you’re being either vague or not understanding the implications of what you are saying. That doesn’t mean I’m not guilty of the same thing. I’m just saying. And secondly. Yes. I am aware I have anger issues that make it difficult for me to not view things personally. I am in therapy for it. Despite what this shows I am actually better now. I’m not purposefully going onto peoples post or blog to ream them out anymore at least. Small progress.
What I’m saying is. I’m allowed to have emotions. I’m allowed to be angry and reactive. There is literally nothing wrong with yelling at people who hurt you.
Uh. So. I’m officially dropping writing that AU. Like. For good. The premise was shoddy at best and my brain isn’t smart enough to make it work. Plus I’m too into writing my ‘Jon with DID’ AU, when I get the urge to write, to really care about it. Also, I’m gonna try to make it something original.
Aside from that, still no news about the recorded version of the Magnus Live: The Hilltop. Nor when Protocol will come back. Though it seems like it won’t be for another few months. Either way, without content, and I’m not in the mood to continue my relisten of season 3&4, I’m not posting as much. Maybe every couple days. Though there is the future kickstarter for that Archives puzzle whatever game. Probably won’t get it if it’s over like. $200.
Uhh. Yeah. Guess that’s all. Most of my time has been spent playing Animal Crossing and other video games to keep the demons away. So if y’all want my friend or dream code hmu 🤙
Uh. So. I’m officially dropping writing that AU. Like. For good. The premise was shoddy at best and my brain isn’t smart enough to make it work. Plus I’m too into writing my ‘Jon with DID’ AU, when I get the urge to write, to really care about it. Also, I’m gonna try to make it something original.
Aside from that, still no news about the recorded version of the Magnus Live: The Hilltop. Nor when Protocol will come back. Though it seems like it won’t be for another few months. Either way, without content, and I’m not in the mood to continue my relisten of season 3&4, I’m not posting as much. Maybe every couple days. Though there is the future kickstarter for that Archives puzzle whatever game. Probably won’t get it if it’s over like. $200.
Uhh. Yeah. Guess that’s all. Most of my time has been spent playing Animal Crossing and other video games to keep the demons away. So if y’all want my friend or dream code hmu 🤙
