I wonder what it was that made me, like, switch from agreeing with takes about how Jon is culpable for all the actions he took and were taken against him. To. How I am now. Cause I look back sometimes at my Twitter liveblog and some notes I took during my second listen through and all of them are a lot less Jon-apologetic than I am now. Even after I started to actually like him a fourth of the way through.
I know I say it was cause of the fandom, and that likely DOES have a large part in it, but I think it also had to do with how disillusioned I became with the series as a whole after the grand ritual was enacted at the end of season four. I think I just got tired of bad thing after bad thing happening? And the insistence of the series during season five that it was Jon’s fault — when up to that point it was. A bit more. Magnanimous towards his role in it — kinda soured me on any nuanced take regarding him as a character and plot device. And that’s on top of how boring season five was in general.
Idk. I just guess something sort of. Happened. Between my listening to season four and catching up to what was available for season five at the time. That made me flip-a-dip-dip out of trying to pretend that I cared about anything but wanting to see Jon heal.
Which I knew was never gonna happen and was my fault for hoping for in the first place.