lowkey like i don’t believe the whole thing of like martin haters hating him because he’s some like profound extension of themselves making them look to deeply at what it means to be known and loved or whatever, but i do actually hate martin more than the others even tho it’s unjustified because like lowkey he’s what i could’ve been if i was a weirdo loser in a bad way rather than being a weirdo loser in a good way. ive gotta hate him to keep me in line tbh if i ever get tempted to relate to martin i know what i have to change