(post about martin blackwood) it is human nature to want people that you trust/care about to know the bad or complicated things that happened to you without wanting to say what happened, and i think that this is clearly something that is also felt by martin in particular due to how we see him isolating himself while still wanting john to come get him, and how we see him getting mad at john for not being able to predict exactly what he wants while also getting mad at john for having mind reading powers (a pattern he picked up from his mother presumably).
that is to say, i think that him having his experiences with his mother ripped out of his head and put on tape and without any of the biases that he would taint it with if telling the story himself is something that at least some part of him wanted to happen.
it’s sort of the perfect scenario for him in that he has a part of the whole complicated relationship with his mother shared with john (presumably) without any of the actual responsibility that would come if he had told him himself. the only way we could ever get martin’s backstory from a semi-reliable narrator is without his will, and i think martin himself knows that.
