jon being silly-goofy for so much of season 5 (“methinks the spider doth protest too much,” playing I spy, etc) but it’s because the eye is in full power and pumping him with so much dopamine that he actually has the energy to goof around. he’s full of energy and endorphins but it’s all because he’s powered by everyone else’s suffering. makes you think.
He can finally be more open, more himself now that the only ones truly watching him are Martin and his own eyes high above.
S5 Jon crushing my damn soul because he could have been like that the whole time. That’s not only still Jon, he’s the most Jon he’s felt in ages despite everything that’s happened.
He’s not just a strict boss, or a depressed wet cat. He has the capacity to be silly, and snarky, and play games with his boyfriend. He can be genuinely fun to be around, but somewhere along the way he lost a lot of that. He had to lose damn near everything before he could finally let go enough to be that again, and it’s still such a tragically short time.