@blackberreh-art and I are mushing our Barbie dolls together :)))
Miriam Dean stopped aging somewhere in the mid-80’s, but she doesn’t really remember who she was before. She just sort of woke up at the bottom of the ocean, in the cold and the dark and crushing pressure, the empty void all around her. She spent years drifting under there, letting the faint wisps of her past life’s memory waft away in the currents. A decade later she surfaced into an unfamiliar world. The sun was too bright. The dry world was too small compared to her huge, dark undersea fissure. And she was *hungry*.
She spends most of her time in her monstrous Vast Avatar form, trolling the ocean for victims. Giving people who are afraid of deep water something to fear. Giving divers a taste of the depths they wanted to explore so badly.
(MAG 51 High Pressure? That was her!!)
But on land, Miriam is a shy, retiring personality. It’s easy to fluster her. She has a stammer and has a hard time standing up for herself against people like the Fairchilds, who look down on her for her embodying an impure aspect of the Vast, which sits too closely to their enemy, the Buried
(Because seriously. What is the deep ocean but a secret rendezvous for the Vast and the Buried to make out sloppy style?)
Lucky for her, she’s got Evie!! 😃 Who does not know or care what a social norm is!
Evie & Miriam meet cute + Miriam’s monster design are in the works :)
bitter jonmartin makes me a little bit insane actually. despite everything, all the anger and fear and betrayal, still together, not by fate but by choice
“And then the next moment, he’s suddenly, blindingly awake.
Or at least, that’s what it feels like. A passing glance at the alarm clock shows it’s somewhere around 4 AM, but for the first split second of consciousness, he’s too disoriented to process the time. Jon woke them both up with a short, sharp, startled cry before he dissolved immediately into tears. Elias catches a glimmer of green and crimson as he turns, spectral eyes opening all around Jon and buzzing in response to his fear. Then they disappear just as fast. Elias sits up, still blinking blearily. He finds Jon curled on his side next to him, nearly smothering himself with the pillow from how hard he clutches it to his face. Oh. That makes sense. Blocking his senses to stop Beholding from slipping out through him in a moment of vulnerability.
Elias turns over, reaches, hesitates, then rests his fingertips ever-so-gently on Jon’s bent back. When this doesn’t elicit any reaction besides a brief hitch in the sobs, he smooths his hand up and down Jon’s spine in long, careful sweeps. He vaguely remembers his wet nurse doing this for him as a child. This is comforting, right?
“Ssshhhh… it’s okay, Jon. Everything’s alright,” he murmurs in the dark, his voice husky with sleep. “You’re safe. Can you take a deep breath for me?”
A pause, and then Jon obeys, his chest shuddering with the strain of sucking air through the silk pillowcase.
“Good. Good job. Another, please.”
A few more, and Elias convinces Jon to remove the pillow from his face so he can breathe more easily. He sees why Jon needs it, though. His eyes are pinned wide and unblinking with terror, glowing that unnatural shade of green they both know so well. The moment he can see again, the Eyes appear in the air all around him like a hungry swarm. It’s unclear whether they’re here to defend Jon from the perceived threat, or to feed on him.
It’s not often that Elias pushes any feedback into his link with Beholding, aside from the fear it feeds on and the pleasure he takes from it. He considers himself an instrument of his God: to speak back to it is as offensive as it is futile. But tonight, for Jon’s sake, he tries. He opens his own Eye — a single spectral visage glowing from the center of his forehead like the jewel of some terrible crown — and turns it away, across town to the nightmares of some other unfortunate soul. While he does this, he slips in behind Jon and folds his hand over the Archivist’s eyes. There’s a momentary but intense burn of static against his skin, Beholding displeased to be cut off from its Archivist and punishing him for daring to defy it. But he reminds it of its victim elsewhere and diverts its attention as best he can.
Almost instantly, Jon calms. A few more breaths and Elias feels the faint flutter of eyelashes against his palm as Jon finally regains the ability to close his own eyes. His sobbing turns from scared to relieved as he grips Elias’s wrist with one shaking hand, clutching tight as if begging him not to take it away.
So, Elias doesn’t. He crosses the remainder of the space between them, slips his other arm underneath Jon, and tucks the smaller man against his chest to make the angle easier on them both. But he keeps his hand sealed around Jon’s eyes despite the itch of tears drying on his hand. “You’re okay,” he murmurs into the Archivist’s hair. “You’re safe, Jon. All is well.”
It takes a few more minutes of soothing before Jon believes him. But he relaxes by degrees in Elias’s arms, until at last, sleep claims him again.
Meanwhile, Elias lays awake until dawn.
I did this.
I did this terrible thing to him.
He knew this logically. He did it on purpose. He spent years planning it. But to understand the consequences of his actions in the abstract is so, so different from seeing and feeling them now.”
[Excerpt from Chapter 3 of my JonElias fic, Villain and Violent (Infant and Innocent)]
everyone has already said this about mag 81 but jon really just spends twenty minutes absolutely laying into himself. yeah I was an egotistical child who was difficult to care for and the adults around me were generally justified in their open resentment and violence towards me because I was so annoying and then my trauma made me super self-centered and uncompassionate towards other people’s suffering and no I will not be extending even half as much emotional grace towards myself as I do to the adult who routinely beat me up until I was eight <- jesus christ man.
exactlyyy. feeling in control is essential for jon so he’ll readily take responsibility for everything that happens to and around him, and the trade off for any feeling of security that gives him is that he also believes that he directly caused every cruelty and misfortune he has ever experienced. powerlessness is his #1 most hated feeling so he’ll contort his worldview into terrible shapes to avoid it and start saying things like “my adult bully only targeted me because I was annoying and he only died because I didn’t intervene” and “my curiosity and hubris is uniquely responsible for starting the apocalypse, nevermind the other agents who were actively trying to bring it about without my knowledge.”
while i do think jmart’s first kiss actually went something like awkward, intense and heavy tension of asking “can i kiss you?” in the safe house,,. i have been daydreaming about their first kiss being immediately post lonely with jon clinging on martin in the panopticon going “are you okay? are you hurt?” over and over again when he suddenly Knows martin wants so desperately to kiss him and without a seconds hesitation they start making out with a passion that could bring tim back from the dead
@blackberreh-art’s version of Elias is too pretty and makes me think Man. I do not draw old men hot enough, I should experiment that. Anywayyyyy, true to form, I got carried away.
idk the thing i like about the lonely is that theres no one traumatizing incident. its a slow and oppressive fear. like i dont think jon was ‘marked’ by the fifteen minutes he spent yelling 'mahtin’ in the lonely, i think he was marked by the weeks and weeks of everyone hating his ass through season 4.
Martin wasn’t the same. he was isolated, and sad, but he found comfort in the lonely the same way Lukas did, and the same way Jude did with the desolation. He was letting the lonely into himself, not being sacrificed to it.
i always saw it more that Martin was being groomed to become an avatar, and jon was gonna be his first victim.
Do you ever think part of the reason Georgie stayed by Jon’s bedside through all 6 months of his coma but then abruptly walked out of his life when he woke up is because she was fully expecting to be a caregiver for him during a long, grueling post-coma recovery process?
Do you think part of the reason she was so spooked by him waking up (relatively) unscathed is because she had mentally, physically, and emotionally prepared herself to take him in? That her best case scenario — what she had planned and hoped for — was that he’d wake up with severe cognitive and/or physical deficits, as one would expect from someone who survived an explosion and six months in a coma? That he’d have to re-learn how to walk or talk or eat or hold a spoon on his own? That he would *need* someone, and even if it wasn’t what she wanted for herself or him, she had decided she would step up and be that person for him?
It can be so jarring when you build up a vision of your near future around one assumption, only for that assumption to be completely shattered by reality. Do you think she constructed a future for him in her head, and when he woke up “fine”, she was so startled by the breaking of her expectations that it felt almost like a betrayal? And the sheer uncanny impossibility of him waking up “fine” made her think that her friend was dead after all?
Do you think that after Martin stopped coming around and Georgie found herself alone at Jon’s bedside, she realized she was all he had left in the world? The only one who held onto hope that he would survive in some form? The only one who thought he could wake up, severely disabled by his experiences but free at last? The only one who thought he deserved the chance at a mundane life after all of this, even if that life would look radically different? Do you think she grappled with the reality that if she didn’t step up for him, no one would? Do you think she spent long hours coping with the fact that she was going to have to take on new responsibilities and make new sacrifices for him, but she was willing to do it for an old friend who deserved better than the hand he was dealt? Do you think she mourned her old vision of her future, before she reconstructed that vision around caring for him?
Do you think she started talking to Jon’s doctors about what she could expect if she brought him home after he woke up? What kinds of disabilities he would live with, and what the prognosis was? About his quality of life afterwards? His road to recovery? Do you think she made up her spare bedroom with a severely disabled person in mind, and then started looking into hiring a part time caregiver to come help her make sure Jon got the help (she assumed) he’d need? Do you think she did all kinds of research into brain injuries and their aftermath? Physical therapy for people with severe atrophy? NG tubes for re-feeding severely starved people? Occupational therapists?
Do you think part of the reason she was so upset when he woke up (relatively) unscathed, lucid and talking and breathing on his own, maybe a little physically weak but still much like his old self, is because she had realistic expectations of what his life would look like after his injuries? And seeing him suddenly defy all odds by waking up into a full cognitive and physical recovery — a completely unrealistic hope that she never even considered as part of the realm of possibility — only reinforced the idea that the old Jon was dead, and this new Jon wasn’t safe for her to be around?
Do you think it hurt when she realized she couldn’t bring him home?
Do you ever think part of the reason Georgie stayed by Jon’s bedside through all 6 months of his coma but then abruptly walked out of his life when he woke up is because she was fully expecting to be a caregiver for him during a long, grueling post-coma recovery process?
Do you think part of the reason she was so spooked by him waking up (relatively) unscathed is because she had mentally, physically, and emotionally prepared herself to take him in? That her best case scenario — what she had planned and hoped for — was that he’d wake up with severe cognitive and/or physical deficits, as one would expect from someone who survived an explosion and six months in a coma? That he’d have to re-learn how to walk or talk or eat or hold a spoon on his own? That he would *need* someone, and even if it wasn’t what she wanted for herself or him, she had decided she would step up and be that person for him?
It can be so jarring when you build up a vision of your near future around one assumption, only for that assumption to be completely shattered by reality. Do you think she constructed a future for him in her head, and when he woke up “fine”, she was so startled by the breaking of her expectations that it felt almost like a betrayal? And the sheer uncanny impossibility of him waking up “fine” made her think that her friend was dead after all?
Do you think that after Martin stopped coming around and Georgie found herself alone at Jon’s bedside, she realized she was all he had left in the world? The only one who held onto hope that he would survive in some form? The only one who thought he could wake up, severely disabled by his experiences but free at last? The only one who thought he deserved the chance at a mundane life after all of this, even if that life would look radically different? Do you think she grappled with the reality that if she didn’t step up for him, no one would? Do you think she spent long hours coping with the fact that she was going to have to take on new responsibilities and make new sacrifices for him, but she was willing to do it for an old friend who deserved better than the hand he was dealt? Do you think she mourned her old vision of her future, before she reconstructed that vision around caring for him?
Do you think she started talking to Jon’s doctors about what she could expect if she brought him home after he woke up? What kinds of disabilities he would live with, and what the prognosis was? About his quality of life afterwards? His road to recovery? Do you think she made up her spare bedroom with a severely disabled person in mind, and then started looking into hiring a part time caregiver to come help her make sure Jon got the help (she assumed) he’d need? Do you think she did all kinds of research into brain injuries and their aftermath? Physical therapy for people with severe atrophy? NG tubes for re-feeding severely starved people? Occupational therapists?
Do you think part of the reason she was so upset when he woke up (relatively) unscathed, lucid and talking and breathing on his own, maybe a little physically weak but still much like his old self, is because she had realistic expectations of what his life would look like after his injuries? And seeing him suddenly defy all odds by waking up into a full cognitive and physical recovery — a completely unrealistic hope that she never even considered as part of the realm of possibility — only reinforced the idea that the old Jon was dead, and this new Jon wasn’t safe for her to be around?
Do you think it hurt when she realized she couldn’t bring him home?
I think about that.
He also fully embodied her statement… he was dead. No heartbeat. No breath. Arrested of movement and function - all except his mind.
The change in her friends eyes when faced with death, and the change in Jon…. Georgie was robbed of fear, she couldn’t feel the terror she should have, but she was smart enough to recognize what was missing.
I think she removed herself from him in part because she knew he was so deeply a part of fear now, and she couldn’t be trusted to act in a reasonable manner around him as the one person who couldn’t gauge how wrong he truly was.
Oooh ow ow ow that’s fucked up too and I love it…. Maybe she meant it more literally than we thought when she said she couldn’t let herself be “dragged down with him”. She’s self-aware enough to know that her frame of reference is skewed. I always thought it was fucked up of her to tell him that he’s losing his humanity and needs people around him to help him stay true to himself, but then turn around and remove herself from his support network. But now that decision makes more sense. She *can’t* help him counterbalance or combat his connection to Fear because she doesn’t feel it.
Do you ever think part of the reason Georgie stayed by Jon’s bedside through all 6 months of his coma but then abruptly walked out of his life when he woke up is because she was fully expecting to be a caregiver for him during a long, grueling post-coma recovery process?
Do you think part of the reason she was so spooked by him waking up (relatively) unscathed is because she had mentally, physically, and emotionally prepared herself to take him in? That her best case scenario — what she had planned and hoped for — was that he’d wake up with severe cognitive and/or physical deficits, as one would expect from someone who survived an explosion and six months in a coma? That he’d have to re-learn how to walk or talk or eat or hold a spoon on his own? That he would *need* someone, and even if it wasn’t what she wanted for herself or him, she had decided she would step up and be that person for him?
It can be so jarring when you build up a vision of your near future around one assumption, only for that assumption to be completely shattered by reality. Do you think she constructed a future for him in her head, and when he woke up “fine”, she was so startled by the breaking of her expectations that it felt almost like a betrayal? And the sheer uncanny impossibility of him waking up “fine” made her think that her friend was dead after all?
Do you think that after Martin stopped coming around and Georgie found herself alone at Jon’s bedside, she realized she was all he had left in the world? The only one who held onto hope that he would survive in some form? The only one who thought he could wake up, severely disabled by his experiences but free at last? The only one who thought he deserved the chance at a mundane life after all of this, even if that life would look radically different? Do you think she grappled with the reality that if she didn’t step up for him, no one would? Do you think she spent long hours coping with the fact that she was going to have to take on new responsibilities and make new sacrifices for him, but she was willing to do it for an old friend who deserved better than the hand he was dealt? Do you think she mourned her old vision of her future, before she reconstructed that vision around caring for him?
Do you think she started talking to Jon’s doctors about what she could expect if she brought him home after he woke up? What kinds of disabilities he would live with, and what the prognosis was? About his quality of life afterwards? His road to recovery? Do you think she made up her spare bedroom with a severely disabled person in mind, and then started looking into hiring a part time caregiver to come help her make sure Jon got the help (she assumed) he’d need? Do you think she did all kinds of research into brain injuries and their aftermath? Physical therapy for people with severe atrophy? NG tubes for re-feeding severely starved people? Occupational therapists?
Do you think part of the reason she was so upset when he woke up (relatively) unscathed, lucid and talking and breathing on his own, maybe a little physically weak but still much like his old self, is because she had realistic expectations of what his life would look like after his injuries? And seeing him suddenly defy all odds by waking up into a full cognitive and physical recovery — a completely unrealistic hope that she never even considered as part of the realm of possibility — only reinforced the idea that the old Jon was dead, and this new Jon wasn’t safe for her to be around?
Do you think it hurt when she realized she couldn’t bring him home?
I think about that.
He also fully embodied her statement… he was dead. No heartbeat. No breath. Arrested of movement and function - all except his mind.
The change in her friends eyes when faced with death, and the change in Jon…. Georgie was robbed of fear, she couldn’t feel the terror she should have, but she was smart enough to recognize what was missing.
I think she removed herself from him in part because she knew he was so deeply a part of fear now, and she couldn’t be trusted to act in a reasonable manner around him as the one person who couldn’t gauge how wrong he truly was.
Oooh ow ow ow that’s fucked up too and I love it…. Maybe she meant it more literally than we thought when she said she couldn’t let herself be “dragged down with him”. She’s self-aware enough to know that her frame of reference is skewed. I always thought it was fucked up of her to tell him that he’s losing his humanity and needs people around him to help him stay true to himself, but then turn around and remove herself from his support network. But now that decision makes more sense. She *can’t* help him counterbalance or combat his connection to Fear because she doesn’t feel it.
I’d also say, if you follow this to its logical conclusion, Melanie filled this Jon-shaped caregiving hole after she blinded herself. Someone that Georgie can focus all that potential energy she was preparing over the course of Jon’s whole coma, and someone that Georgie can be fiercely protective of. Someone she could help pull away from the Fear, and explore Fearlessness with.
I think though, with Melanie, Georgie’s able to find someone who falls a bit more into being her equal, someone who can push back, and while she does have the ability to be independent, Melanie asks for Georgie’s help.
We know Melanie has “made a few arrangements” prior to the eye awling, which was clearly her reaching out to Georgie. And maybe she did it with the knowledge of Georgie’s prep work for Jon stalling out, knowing that there’s actually one person in her life that would be prepared for this sort of medical emergency.
YESYESYES THANK GOD SOMEONE SAID IT BECAUSE I WAS THINKING IT LITERALLY 5 MINS AFTER I POSTED!!!!
Georgie had a fucking BINDER full of occupational therapists, mental health counselors, physical therapists, caregiving services, the works!! She budgeted for it! She set aside SAVINGS just in case!! She was READY to take someone to all the doctor’s appointments! She had her apartment SET for someone who’s using a mobility aid to navigate! She rearranged her furniture and everything! She had a grab bars installed in her bathroom! She bought a shower chair! Her guest room was all made up and ready for someone to move their whole life there if need be!
When Jon ended up not needing all of that and she came home to a still-empty flat, part of her was glad she didn’t have to rearrange her whole life after all. Just because she was *prepared* to step into a caregiving role doesn’t mean she actively *wanted* to. She just cared about her friend enough that she was ready and willing to do it anyway.
But at the same time… she’s glad, but also weirdly disappointed? All that work for nothing, y’know? If makes her feel a bit foolish for wasting her time and money like that when literally no one asked her to. She just did it without consulting anyone. And worse… she was so sure in her expectation that she’d be bringing someone home, her flat feels weirdly empty now that she knows no one’s coming . Which is ridiculous, right?? It was just her and the Admiral before, and that was enough. Except now it’s not. Nothing’s changed. Just herself and her expectations.
And her disappointment in Jon, of course. She was doing what was best for herself by cutting him off, but that doesn’t make it hurt less. She hated that it came to that.
So she’s alone in a too-empty flat, mourning the loss of a friend who she just couldn’t keep supporting through this terrible thing he kept throwing himself into. She couldn’t watch him self-destruct anymore. She had to put herself first.
And then… along comes Melanie! Once Jon and Basira un-Slaughter her, Melanie actually starts putting in the effort that Jon couldn’t, or wouldn’t! Georgie is so SO happy to take her to her therapy appointments as long as Melanie keeps putting in the work to heal from her trauma. Georgie is so happy and relieved that SOMEONE is making the effort to disconnect from this awful, toxic environment. She’s not going to lose everyone to the Fears the way she lost Jon! She can actually HELP someone this time!
Can you imagine her relief when Melanie finally makes the call to quit, no matter the cost? When she comes to Georgie with a solution, and commits to it? To being better? To following through?
Do you ever think part of the reason Georgie stayed by Jon’s bedside through all 6 months of his coma but then abruptly walked out of his life when he woke up is because she was fully expecting to be a caregiver for him during a long, grueling post-coma recovery process?
Do you think part of the reason she was so spooked by him waking up (relatively) unscathed is because she had mentally, physically, and emotionally prepared herself to take him in? That her best case scenario — what she had planned and hoped for — was that he’d wake up with severe cognitive and/or physical deficits, as one would expect from someone who survived an explosion and six months in a coma? That he’d have to re-learn how to walk or talk or eat or hold a spoon on his own? That he would *need* someone, and even if it wasn’t what she wanted for herself or him, she had decided she would step up and be that person for him?
It can be so jarring when you build up a vision of your near future around one assumption, only for that assumption to be completely shattered by reality. Do you think she constructed a future for him in her head, and when he woke up “fine”, she was so startled by the breaking of her expectations that it felt almost like a betrayal? And the sheer uncanny impossibility of him waking up “fine” made her think that her friend was dead after all?
Do you think that after Martin stopped coming around and Georgie found herself alone at Jon’s bedside, she realized she was all he had left in the world? The only one who held onto hope that he would survive in some form? The only one who thought he could wake up, severely disabled by his experiences but free at last? The only one who thought he deserved the chance at a mundane life after all of this, even if that life would look radically different? Do you think she grappled with the reality that if she didn’t step up for him, no one would? Do you think she spent long hours coping with the fact that she was going to have to take on new responsibilities and make new sacrifices for him, but she was willing to do it for an old friend who deserved better than the hand he was dealt? Do you think she mourned her old vision of her future, before she reconstructed that vision around caring for him?
Do you think she started talking to Jon’s doctors about what she could expect if she brought him home after he woke up? What kinds of disabilities he would live with, and what the prognosis was? About his quality of life afterwards? His road to recovery? Do you think she made up her spare bedroom with a severely disabled person in mind, and then started looking into hiring a part time caregiver to come help her make sure Jon got the help (she assumed) he’d need? Do you think she did all kinds of research into brain injuries and their aftermath? Physical therapy for people with severe atrophy? NG tubes for re-feeding severely starved people? Occupational therapists?
Do you think part of the reason she was so upset when he woke up (relatively) unscathed, lucid and talking and breathing on his own, maybe a little physically weak but still much like his old self, is because she had realistic expectations of what his life would look like after his injuries? And seeing him suddenly defy all odds by waking up into a full cognitive and physical recovery — a completely unrealistic hope that she never even considered as part of the realm of possibility — only reinforced the idea that the old Jon was dead, and this new Jon wasn’t safe for her to be around?
Do you think it hurt when she realized she couldn’t bring him home?
I think about that.
He also fully embodied her statement… he was dead. No heartbeat. No breath. Arrested of movement and function - all except his mind.
The change in her friends eyes when faced with death, and the change in Jon…. Georgie was robbed of fear, she couldn’t feel the terror she should have, but she was smart enough to recognize what was missing.
I think she removed herself from him in part because she knew he was so deeply a part of fear now, and she couldn’t be trusted to act in a reasonable manner around him as the one person who couldn’t gauge how wrong he truly was.
Oooh ow ow ow that’s fucked up too and I love it…. Maybe she meant it more literally than we thought when she said she couldn’t let herself be “dragged down with him”. She’s self-aware enough to know that her frame of reference is skewed. I always thought it was fucked up of her to tell him that he’s losing his humanity and needs people around him to help him stay true to himself, but then turn around and remove herself from his support network. But now that decision makes more sense. She *can’t* help him counterbalance or combat his connection to Fear because she doesn’t feel it.
Okay so addressing this rb— good point, @dysfunctionalcreature!!! Your comment made me realize I may have based this whole meta on an assumption I made, or a widely accepted fanon, as is often the trap people fall into with their favorite longform media. So I went back in the transcripts to check the source material for evidence to back up my little thesis!!
Please enjoy the following textual analysis, courtesy of a bored English Major who doesn’t get to use their literary analysis skills much irl:
Ep 121:
If you would turn your attention to figure 1!!
Fig. 1.1: This line implies, to me, that Georgie visits often enough to have a sense of who does or doesn’t generally visit Jon in the hospital
Fig. 1.2: This implies that Georgie checks in with Jon’s nurses regularly enough that they would’ve notified her of a new visitor on the way in if they had seen Oliver
Fig. 1.3: Here’s Georgie displaying a significant show of protectiveness over Jon while he’s helpless. Arguably, this could also be chalked up to her (justifiable) hostility to anyone End-affiliated, and her desire to get Oliver Out of her General Vicinity. But it’s worth noting that if her *only* motivation is to be Away from Oliver, she could’ve just given him a minute alone with Jon like he asked. Instead she goes on the defensive. She practically chases Oliver out of the room, rather than flee and leave Jon alone with a potential threat. For all she knows in this moment, she could very well be putting herself in serious danger by getting between Oliver and Jon. She knows the minute she lays eyes on Oliver that he’s Bad News, but she doesn’t hesitate. Just because Georgie doesn’t feel fear doesn’t mean she can’t recognize risk. She knows EXACTLY what she’s risking in this moment, and she does it anyway. That, to me, feels like a significant show of loyalty and care. You see this defensiveness continue on here in Fig. 2:
Fig. 2.1: Okay so after that tense interaction, we get THIS cute little line where Georgie talks to Jon in his coma, knowing he may or may not be able to hear him. It’s generally encouraged to talk to coma patients. And if I remember correctly, her like delivery is casual. Conversational. Implying that she’s comfortable talking to his functionally-dead body. She’s Been Here. She intends to continue Being Here. In addition, the sentiment she’s expressing in this line is also one of care and protection! She cares about who he’s spending time with. She wants him to be surrounded by people who are good for him, not pulling him deeper into danger.
Fig. 2.2: In a continuation of my earlier point in 1.3, here we see Georgie run AFTER Oliver after she’s finally got him to leave. If we extrapolate our earlier assumption that she knows very well what a risk this is, we again see reinforcement of her loyalty to Jon. Here, she’s afraid Oliver may have done something to Jon while she wasn’t there, or left something sinister behind. At the very least, she clocks that Oliver recorded something or left something behind, and she’s not gonna let that slide. Again, she goes against her own discomfort for Jon’s sake.
And last but not least, here’s the lines in Ep 122 that essentially define Jon and Georgie’s falling-out:
Not much to say on this tbh. The lines speak for themselves. Georgie is honestly, genuinely disappointed to see him wake up no worse for wear. And WOW does that hurt. But he’s awake now. He’s cognitively whole. He’s making his own decisions. He’s not helpless anymore, which means he’s no longer her responsibility. And now that he’s no longer her responsibility, she finally gets to make a Choice about whether she’s going to continue trying to be a caregiver for him in light of this information. She runs a risk assessment on the spot and realizes… no, she’s not willing to make those sacrifices for someone who A) isn’t physically or financially dependent on her and B) poses a danger to her via his very existence.
I remember her delivery of that “Goodbye” having a certain ring of finality to it, and Jon calling out after her sounded pretty heartbroken and desperate to stop her from walking out. Because he knew that once she was gone, that was it for them. But ultimately he lets her go.
So, in summary: No, it’s never explicitly stated in the text that Georgie stuck by his bedside for six months. But I got that impression from details in the source material which, to me, feel like a strong implication.
So yay! Glad to know I wasn’t just pulling this meta out of my ass lol. I was just kinda trusting my recollections when I wrote the original post, but it’s vindicating to look back on the text and find evidence to back it up.
