realizing the more horror podcasts i listen to that while i dream of being a slasher film final girl (brave, resilient, justice personified, usually gets to stab someone), i am in fact a horror podcast final boy (just curious enough to become embroiled in eldritch rituals but too self-sacrificing and resigned to my fate to do anything about it once there, “this may as well happen” but it’s about your body being used as a vessel for other powers)