2021-04-30 3:41:46 ¶ ●

Have to wake up way too early tomorrow so im posting this now. Last serious bit for a while.

@nonbinaryeye

Your name is CAPTAINJONAHSPRITE but you go by Jonah or Jonahsprite.

The hero of breath who is technically your husband, or your other self husband finishes the process to jump start the scratch and start a new session in which the chances to win are higher.

The three of you stay there watching it all unfold, all across them, the lands are more and more corrupted by the powers of the entities around them, struggling to keep themselves alive.

“What now?”

“We wait for backup”

However, you are also a construct of the game and are aware that bringing the fears along to the new one would merely cause the same effect and ruin the session as well.

So you told JONATHAN SIMS the archivist, the man who had the biggest amount of marks of entities and who, in another universe would have been his archive of fear, your idea.

You won’t go deeper into your own insecurities regarding your existence in this world and how you came to be. Maybe later once you are all safe in the TUNDRA with the rest of the team you can ponder it more.

Point is after JONAH or for an easier way to understand it, ELIAS left to fight his husband, you spoke out to the rest of the players. Elias would hate the plan and so would Peter. But you care more about your continued existence rather than their feelings about it.

Perhaps if you still had the power of the EYE, your actions would be different.

But you dont and you are meant to help with the game regardless of your wishes.

So the decision is obvious, leave them here to consume what’s left and escape without them.

The new session would still have them, it was a world based on their own after all, but until they reached it they would be severed from them. That was the outcome he expected anyways. With luck the new players won’t be as connected to the entities, enough that their powers are not so corrosive to the integrity of skaia. People who know of the fears but aren’t directly aligned with them as avatars.

For this they needed a beacon, a distraction to keep them here, something they could follow and Jonah figured that a spider had her ways and had a backup plan. The thing in Hilltop Road will not be opened, but the tapes were a good idea to keep things here. However to do that….

Your beloved institute.

That hurt.

There is the chance that if they win they could still get it back in the new universe they make, it will still hurt.

Leave the institute and the tapes to tie them there and escape with all of them alive. Hopefully they can get away before Annabelle comes back.

You look at Elias and Peter and feel a sting of rejection, you know they will not forgive you for getting their patrons trapped here and taking away their powers, even if temporarily. So for as long as you have before it becomes obvious what you have done, you latch onto them, kissing Peter one more time. He takes it in stride and lifts you up easily, well you don’t really weigh anything since you are sort of a spirit, but its the thought that counts.

You have wanted to do this for weeks now, but you knew it was not your place and it felt just as you imagined it. Just as good.

It wasn’t like Modechai who was colder, Peter had the joviality that made him seem like he cared, but in fact did not. Only for you, Elias and the cats did he become a little bit more nice. The man truly was truly making an effort and it showed. He did care, that’s the difference.

Elias watches and pouts. Its the same way you do it, but its hard not to stare at him and ponder. You know its sort of narcissistic in a very convoluted way, but while he still had the body of Elias Bouchard it was easier to forget and pretend he was someone else.

He catches your eye and gives you a small encouraging smile in exchange, it should not make you feel that warm. Albeit you also have the feeling of wanting to bite his hand and that you attribute to the Captain’s own feelings for the man.

Still, it’s just a fancy and perhaps curiosity nothing else beyond that, you are sure of it. Its not as if the man would even consider it, he wouldn’t, who would really want such a horrible fake like him?

…

After everything, you admit that it was easier to fall in step with Peter in their banter and the way he was so familiar already with you, made the whole thing even easier for you to want him. And oh do you want him. Your love has always been passive and secretive, its very likely that the cat part of you that still had some hazy memories of the man mixed up with your human mind is causing it. But as you saw before with them and their fight, maybe you always had it in you, but it was easier to let it be and do nothing. Maybe Elias grew a little bit more than you did, you doubt it would have happened outside of the game, but it still shows that you are ways behind.

An apology to BarnabasSprite would not be enough, but it’s a start.

Time was running out and the two humans were looking more and more restless, you had faith. Not on the other players gods no, but Simon was fond of Peter in the way family was and he and Jonah are friends.

The others could not refuse the old man, since he was, after all, their way out.

Finally the TUNDRA appears out of thin air, as if the sky itself just let it out for you to see and on top of it Simon waved at them. Before any of you could even move the feeling of vertigo hit and suddenly the three of you were already there.

“Congrats! Now if you don’t mind we should leave right about now!”

The consequent moments were something of a blur, the window, the impulse, and then-

You were out in space.

Quickly you sneak out to the lower levels of the ship, no need to stay for the fallout.

You knew what you did and even if it was for a short amount of time you got to taste what it would be like to have almost everything you wanted.