i’ve been thinking of a scenario where in late s3 jon is in elias’ office discussing plans for stopping the unknowing and when jon asks a question elias pulls the ol’ “try to know” trick and jon whines and is like “i have no idea what that means, tell me what the hell i’m supposed to be doing” and elias very calmly condescends “it’s like exercising a muscle, jon, i can’t do it for you”
and then after some vague platitudes about breathing deeply and focusing with intent jon… does know. he knows where to find the answer to his question, knows exactly the right statement. knows exactly where it’s filed away. and then he knows the answer intuitively, without even reading it. and then he knows more. he knows quite a lot, actually. he knows… actually quite a bit more than elias would have expected at this stage.
and suddenly the exercise has gotten away from him. jon’s pupils are blown wide. his expression is manic, “elias… i can see it. i know what to do i know how to stop it, i-” he rises from his chair and elias shrinks back into his.
“i can see,” jon says, breathlessly, “i can see the things that i point my mind to, i- i- i can see rosie, just outside the door. i can see- tim! tim is at his desk for the first time in… god, in weeks. a- a- and martin, i can see martin, he’s- he’s filing through our historic foreign language statements and-”
jon stops suddenly and turns towards elias, who can feel his gaze on him like a lead weight dropped squarely in the center of his chest. a moment of deafening silence stretches between them. then quietly, haltingly, jon rasps, “i can see… you.”