funny how jonelias has a vice grip on my brain again all of a sudden
Jon feeling Elias’ presence like a spinal reflex, a stimulus to which he reacts despite himself—he is entirely out of control when it comes to Elias, which is to say he surrenders control to a part of him he desperately wishes not to acknowledge. Jon can’t turn away from Elias when they are extensions of each other, when every nerve in Jon’s body aligns itself irrevocably with Elias’.