when i go into daydream land i kinda came up with idea that one of simon’s way of finding people to feed to the sky is by hanging out in care facilities aaksjasj
considering he’s like 400-500 years old, do you think simon sees jonah as like. just a weird teenager. a particularly troubled young man. does he find him kind of endearing.
considering he’s like 400-500 years old, do you think simon sees jonah as like. just a weird teenager. a particularly troubled young man. does he find him kind of endearing.
imagining maxwell rayner attacking the institute and simon’s just shocked like “halley! he’s just a kid!!” and jonah’s just absolutely seething like “get out both of you get OUT right now. i am two centuries old. and i own a gun. leave” and simon’s like “see what you did? he’s upset. you’ve upset the poor thing. apologize”
all this time i’ve been essentially saying “jonah magnus is conceptum and attracted to bureaucracy” and none of you have pointed it out yet, so i assume you all agree.
i just think it’d be really funny if a homophobe went to the magnus institute to make a statement, and then got mad at one of the archive assistants for wearing a pride pin or smth and started the whole “who’s your boss?” routine, only to find out that the chain of command just gets gayer and gayer.
oh you don’t wanna deal with the friendly gay man just wearing a rainbow pin? then feel free to deal with his boss/boyfriend instead, a gnc asexual biromantic man with a vibe that can only be described as “of course you’re constantly dealing with the horrors. and have pronouns”.
oh, you wanna talk to the manager? have fun complaining about the gay agenda to a guy who gets funding for his institute from his sugar daddy, wears high heels just to make sure people can hear him walking around and know he’s keeping an eye on them, and probably switches his gender up every once in a while just to keep the haters guessing.
s4 missing scene where basira sees elias without high heels for the first time cuz he’s in jail and is like what. why are you. why are you short
i could be projecting cuz there’s a reason i connect with the vast, but i feel like there’s a lot of angst potential to simon fairchild.
the vast is, by nature, an uncaring god. it represents a universe in which you do not matter. and that can feel both comforting and terrifying at the same time.
we don’t know simon’s real name. he’s probably forgotten it himself by now. it doesn’t matter to him.
it’s not as overtly tragic as something like the lonely. instead of isolation and depression, it presents as hedonism and recklessness. you feel free. you feel light and unburdened. but the reality of it is that you’re losing yourself. you’ve stopped caring about yourself. you’ve stopped even considering yourself a real person, after all, in the grand scheme of things, you’re nothing at all, and you’re more than alright with that.
you figured out that what you do doesn’t matter, and instead of letting go of that, you fixated on it. you’re clinging to your own meaninglessness as a lifeline. if you don’t matter, you can do what you want. finally. if you don’t matter, you’re free. finally.
and if you don’t matter, your name doesn’t matter. why not just take someone else’s? and if you don’t matter, your actions don’t matter. why feel guilty about anything? you’re free, isn’t this what you wanted? doesn’t it feel good to not matter?
the reality of the situation is that you no longer matter to yourself. and you don’t want to matter to anyone else ever again.
foggyskies in a non-romantic way is huge to me btw. it’s the sort of implied dynamic that we don’t get to see with almost any other avatars. they’re friends. they understand each other. they definitely fucked at least once. why ruin all that by inserting romance into it
i know peter lukas is finnish cuz i know his ass grew up listening to like. leevi and the leavings. and i know mike crew is finnish because he’s like 90% of the stadi girls i see at puhelinseksi concerts
weird mental reverse thing where the only thing i feel when i listen to the most overtly tragic jonmartin scenes ever is “i love this podcast so much” but when i listen to simon fairchild just being silly or mike crew talking about his search for a leitner i’m immediately like “ohh noooo…oh sweetheart you can’t live like that…nooo….”
idk why but i like the idea that the eye affects sleep. i’m pretty sure there’s no canon proof of that?? i think?? but personally i think. gertrude always Knew when someone was close by when she was asleep, and she’d force herself to wake up whenever someone got too close. i think at some point, jon’s dreams became entirely lucid and much more clear than typical. i think jonah lost his ability to actually dream, instead only seeing other people’s thoughts and memories. he’ll often mumble in his sleep, narrating what he’s seeing as if it’s a statement.
i know peter lukas is finnish cuz i know his ass grew up listening to like. leevi and the leavings. and i know mike crew is finnish because he’s like 90% of the stadi girls i see at puhelinseksi concerts
obsessed w/ the idea of them as the two opposite sides of the finnish spectrum. peter’s like one of those stereotypical finnish dads that listens to teuvo, maanteiden kuningas and reminisces about his childhood. mike’s one of those kids that isn’t exactly punk, but fits right into the scene and gets beat up in the pit while vieraita toisillemme blares in the background.
im sick and i cant sleep and its 4 am in finland and i am still stuck on how my twisted mind came up with “simon fairchild as sally bowles from cabaret”
simon thinks him and jonah are friends and jonah does NOT agree. he’s like god please just leave me alone you insufferable man and simon’s like haha okay see you tomorrow jone. byee
hmmm. much to consider. i think jonah would try to make it a whole tense homoerotic rivalry but simon would just constantly ruin it by being like “you wanna fuck me so bad it’s honestly embarrassing” and like what’s jonah gonna do? deny the obvious?
also i think simon’s mildly fascinated by jonah. i think he wants to study him, in a way.
hmmm. much to consider. i think jonah would try to make it a whole tense homoerotic rivalry but simon would just constantly ruin it by being like “you wanna fuck me so bad it’s honestly embarrassing” and like what’s jonah gonna do? deny the obvious?
also i think simon’s mildly fascinated by jonah. i think he wants to study him, in a way.
overall, 10/10, very interesting dynamic.
i could talk about the angst aspect but i don’t wanna kill you guys . lol
nevermind im bored and its 5 am i can be a little evil if i wanna.
i think that neither of them want to live at this point, but both of them are far too scared of death.
simon has nothing to live for. i feel like i know his mental state very very well. he’s living for fun. he has to keep moving, because he knows the kind of pit that’s just waiting to consume him at any moment. and if he falls in once, he’ll realize just how much he really wants to stop existing.
jonah lives for one purpose alone. and he’s worked so hard for it, because it’s given his existence some kind of meaning. but what if, what if, what if. what if it doesn’t work? what if it works, but it’s not what he thought it’d be? what if it hurts? what if it’s just a different kind of death, an apotheosis he’s not ready for? he’s terrified. but he can’t stop now. this is all he has. he’s made sure of that himself.
i think they’d recognize that fear in each other. i think they’d make quiet promises of escaping, somehow, and even more quiet promises of “kill me if i can’t.” and “kill me if they don’t.”
if you listen carefully, the in case i die version of jimmy mushrooms sounds a bit like it’s gonna transition into ryan, i wonder at some point. this is a reference to the fact that both songs are so very simon fairchild coded i think
if you listen carefully, the in case i die version of jimmy mushrooms sounds a bit like it’s gonna transition into ryan, i wonder at some point. this is a reference to the fact that both songs are so very simon fairchild coded i think
same thing with the icid version of laplace’s angel and misanthrapologist. because they’re both so jonah magnus coded. naturally
simon thinks him and jonah are friends and jonah does NOT agree. he’s like god please just leave me alone you insufferable man and simon’s like haha okay see you tomorrow jone. byee
they get along very well all things considered, jonah’s just a bit too proud to say Yes I Would Like To Be Friends With You, Actually.
Would you like to ramble to me about jonelias? Personally i am. Deep in the sauce.
oooo it’s been a while since i properly thought about them.
i don’t have a lot on my mind rn, but i do like the idea of elias having a crush on jon and jon somehow being the only one who doesn’t realize. the others would 100% try to use it as blackmail against elias but it’s not very efficient because like. jon would never believe any of them even if they told him.
See people asking you about your opinions on different tma ships, so what do you think of Maxwell/Simon? Or even Maxwell/Elias?
i have actually written fics on both lol. big fan. especially of the themes.
i think maxwell/simon would be really funny if they’d been together like. since the 1600’s. but nobody ever realized.
with maxwell/elias i’m a huge fan of the idea of the eye and the dark as opposites. i feel like the two of them would be constantly trying to convert each other.
I should draw a picture of gunpowder tim, but he’s holding a detonator and is in a circus with a mannequin running towards him with the text “woops wrong Tim.”
Have a nice little progress update. I decided to spend my time on this, so why keep you all waiting in the mean time?
Ft. The anglerfish/worlds best anti-smoking psa
Update; I have started rendering. Going well. Do not question the fact I started rendering before even adding all the flats.
Jonah margarita strikes me as the kind who’s very gay and strikes up a weird obsessive relationship with every little man he meets but would also have a hatefuck with Daisy just for the hell of it. Do you see my vision.
ok ok, so, I just kind of realised that Simon Fairchild is older than planes right? so, can you imagine how excited he was when they were invented? he felt the fresh fear of the wright brothers for those first 12 seconds and went insane.
OR, alternatively, he invented the aeroplane because he was bored of just throwing people from cliffs
ohmygod. he was absolutely fucking ecstatic. overwhelmed with joy. best day of his life. he would force every other avatar onto a plane immediately
this is the universe where lonelyeyes is canon. i know because they have a beautiful daughter named lena kelley
hiring bouchards who think they’re entitled to knowledge and power is just what jonah taught lena to do. he also taught her how to dodge questions. but peter absolutely taught her how to make any social interaction uncomfortable.
i would successfully utilize the element of surprise against jonah magnus by calling him cute. this would work only because you guys are constantly calling him hot. you are enabling my strategy
i think about “oh, fairchild’s just a name” so much.
that’s so quintessentially vast. there’s no meaning behind it, it holds no value. a name is just a name. the universe will forget your name at some point anyways, why treat it as something meaningful? you’re so small that you barely exist at all, it feels ridiculous to act like your name matters.
my theory? me being the most scared of the extinction is also related to me being so very vast coded. i am an enjoyer of human insignificance. the very real destructive impact of humanity terrifies me. what do you MEAN we have done something irreversable, i thought we were so small we barely existed :(