do you have any season 4 or 5 jonhelen/one sided jonhelen headcanons? or just general thoughts about them?

oughhjj yess,,,

helen is kind of just. a mess emotionally the whole time. she doesn’t understand what her feelings are or how to get rid of them (and she very, very much would like to get rid of them). it honestly takes her way too long, like well into s5, to actually realize she’s just in love with jon. so for all of s4, she’s basically just trying to get rid of The Bad Feeling and get The Good Feeling, and the easiest way to do that is to just. be around jon.

around s5, it gets a bit different for her because like. the good feeling is still there, but now it’s mixed in with this way more intense bad feeling. and that’s around the time she realizes what’s actually going on, because the only big change about jon in her eyes is that now he’s with someone, and that someone is not her.

added onto all of that, there’s also the bone-deep insecurity probably caused by her constantly being around two people that not only dislike her, but are also, on some inherent level, better people than her, and they act the part too.

just. a lot going on for her, and none of it is good.