equalseleventhirds:

apropoptosis:

apropoptosis:

in the club thinking about how jared hopworth is an idiot but also how the fandom is fundamentally missing the point about his character

he’s not one dimensional. what he wants is love and companionship. he talks about his father’s pride in him being tall, and you can fill in the blanks that there wasn’t anything else he felt proud about. his mother was evidently stern. he realized as he grew up that he wasn’t book smart, and probably was never going to leave where he was, and that the world around him resented him for that kind of an existence

so naturally he takes to the flesh. as people are exiting his life en masse, suddenly he has this ability to shift people. to make them happier. to make himself more complete. but he discovers this joy he has is a horror for some.

elias didn’t just send jared information on where to find bones, victims - he sent him information on where to find friends. jared is perfectly cool just chilling out running a gym and contorting people who are unhappy with their bodies, friends who won’t leave him

the flesh is primarily about the horror of being grist for the mill - jared is a beast marked for the slaughter of a society that had deemed him unacceptable, unworthy. his lack of wanting anything bigger than the satisfaction of being enough - for himself, his friends, his patron - speaks volumes about how deeply his need for affection runs

idk i just wish more people talked about that

#yeah i LOVE jared hopworth#like if we as a fandom can talk abt peter lukas having a sad childhood… jared had a sadder one#without even being in a cult#his father was a bully who wanted him to be a bigger one#his mother never smiled at him? what the fuck#he made ‘friends’ by being big and making other kids feel like they could be bullies#and then when they grew up and advanced in education & in the world and he DIDN’T#they treated him like he was lesser#and he resented them bcos he couldn’t understand that and he felt left behind#and yes he did bully them and did little petty crimes#he fucked with the statement giver in his first episode pretty much a lot#he was not exactly a GOOD person but he WAS extremely disadvantaged and no one was helping him#and then the boneturner’s tale found him and spoke to him#and what did he do with it? tried to make his father taller like he wanted. tried to make his mother smile.#failed at making them happy and then? the book that was maybe the first ever sentient-ish thing that wanted him and wanted to help him?#that was taken away from him! no wonder he wanted it back! no wonder he didn’t care what he had to do to get it!#and then yes after that he just wanted to run a business or two and have some friends#and if his friends wanted him to sometimes hurt people for them… well that’s fine he’s good at that#that’s what other people have always wanted from him going all the way back to his dad#………..do i have a lot of feelings about jared hopworth YEAH#when i say all the avatars except jonah magnus have trauma I MEAN JARED TOO

@equalseleventhirds​ finally some good fucking food

sorry op i don’t meant to keep talking but i just looked at the transcript for jared’s statement and i’d forgotten that he literally talks about when he was in SCHOOL and thus a CHILD like “Those were bad times. I tried to look ahead, but I couldn’t see anything. No future, no hope; just bitter parents, and whatever misery I could pass on to everyone else.”

like damn, he was super depressed and not coping well and had no one helping him when he was a kid and then a young adult. until the boneturner’s tale came to him.