jontim au with desolation tim and it’s about the obsession. tim does not forgive him and looking at him fills him with an explosive rage but no he has to be near him. he has to make sure jon fears him. he has to be the one that can hurt jon in the worst ways but no one else can. any other avatar gets their grubby paws on him to mark him or whatever elias wants gets eviscerated because tim killed him once and he’ll do it again and no one is allowed to try
jon is all that’s left of tim’s life from before the explosion and after danny. there’s nothing else. and that in itself feeds the desolation but it’s feeding on tim. and he’s in an endless cycle because of it. and jon loves him and loves and loves and loves and tim can’t handle that. because it’s his very core to take everything away from jon and to make sure he himself has nothing left to take away but there’s always jon.
there’s always jon.