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It’s a bad idea to surrender so completely to the man he killed once already. The man he tried to kill earlier already. This man isn’t the same as the one who ruined him but Jon knows he will do the same, will relish ruining him all over even if there is nothing left to ruin. He will worm his way inside Jon’s soul and mind and spread his rot until there was nothing left unclaimed by him or the man Jon knew. He shouldn’t give in. He shouldn’t close his eyes and let himself be moved like an obedient doll, caressed and fucked, equally gentle, equally nauseating.
Jon hears himself moan and he hears Elias talk, his tone adoring and gentle. Must be praise and Jon appreciates it even if he doesn’t understand a single word. He shouldn’t let…. What was it again? He couldn’t think, couldn’t exist outside of Elias’ touch on his skin and his words.