I think Jon should use the Beholding to be a bit of a creep about other people’s fantasies (ones involving him that is). It’s not on purpose. Not at first, anyway. He just. Keeps accidentally picking up the sexual fantasies of others. And he’s horrified by it, sort of even hates it, but at the same time they get him so wet…. and would it really be so bad? If he masturbated to other people’s most private thoughts and desires? Nobody had to know. Surely he couldn’t help his body’s natural reactions, the places his mind wanted to slip as he brought himself off.

Sometimes it’s gender-affirming either. A stranger imagining themselves riding his cock (and he’s struck by a pang of longing for something be hadn’t ever really thought about before, realizes he wants…).

Daisy has violent fantasies of chasing him down, violently pinning and using him until he’s dead. Tim thinks about their few previous sexual encounters. Elias has a lot more variety (mostly because I’ve thought about him more lol). Fantasies of publicly breeding Jon as he begs for it in front of a crowd of horrified onlookers. Of Jon sitting back and just Watching as Elias jerks himself to completion. Mostly he prefers to recall Jon’s own fantasies, or his memories of watching Jon undress, watching him touch himself, in a humiliating violation that leaves Jon soaked.

(Jonelias end up having a LOT of sex in s3)