So much of Jon’s attraction to Elias comes from him being an authority figure btw. It is directly connected. Especially the sexual shit but also in general. So much of it comes from Elias is an authority figure and Jon can only feel comfortable expecting care and help from someone if he views them as Above him or Required to take care of him. This is also why he has such a massive daddy kink. In this essay I will-
Jon voice. My only family member only took care of me out of obligation I always worried she didn’t love me. All of my relationships fall apart and I think everyone’s going to leave me. Anyways Elias can you please be obligated to care about me. Can it please be your job to take care of me. Even when I’m annoying and whiny and helpless and useless, can you still take care of me? Can you still need me? Could you still want me, no matter how much effort I am? Could you be my dad?