Why is jg incest so GOOD though. They should be inseparable they’re both so desperate for companionship in canon no way they’re being normal about each other. I need them being willing to do batshit things for each other. Even just to give the other a tiny bit of joy. Weird obsessive. They say eh they don’t need another document storage cot, the one works. They’ve shared a bed forever, have you met Mary? Total cheapskate. Don’t worry about how tightly they hold each other or how their lips are a little bloody or how flushed they are. I think they try to keep it a secret because they’re vaguely aware no they should Not do this. But also they don’t…super care? That it’s wrong. Jon mostly feels guilty because he knows people will be furious if they know. It’s like. In his mind they shouldn’t be doing this but both of them want to and it’s not like either of them have room to judge the other. Not sure on how gerry views it. I feel like she’s mildly terrified about how much she wants Jon. How badly she needs him and wants to keep him there and never let him go. How she follows him everywhere and wishes she could sink her teeth in and squeeze until he goes completely limp and pliant and adoring in her jaws and -
She doesn’t think a big sister is supposed to think that. She thinks she didn’t really have a chance to be any other way. So she’s just trying to make sure she’s the only one who’s being fucked up towards her brother at this point. A thing of “wow I’m kinda awful but I need this and you need this and don’t we deserve something good for once?” Idk. Idk! Yk??