We as a society need to talk more about the incestuous potential of Jongertrude.
Raising a boy who could end up being her successor or a sacrifice. Unsure of Jon’s usefulness and potential. Jon soso eager to please this woman who’s taken an interest in him and who knows so much but is also cagey and cold and distant. Feeling more like her student than her child (her ward. He can’t think of her as family. Knows that isn’t how he thinks of him). Yearning for her love and affection and attention and it starts manifesting in strange ways. Dreams that leave him warm and sick and restless. Guilty fantasies in the dark, a hand down his pants as he imagines what it would be like if she showed him what to do, how to touch himself. Or if she just pushed him down and took what she wanted. Just. It’s be terrible for Jon and sooooo much fun.