Clawing at the walls. But what if jon was so so full she could barely do anything but clutch at her stomach and whimper helplessly as elias fed her statement after statement after statement tears in her eyes because elias needs to make sure she has enough to eat so she can grow ok :( she doesn’t get to neglect herself throughout her transition if she’s not the one controlling it if elias is Making her . He can make sure she eats well and feels so so good and sees how nice she can feel when she isn’t constantly denying herself. Who said that <- covered in blood