2022-01-01 14:29:42 ¶ ● ⬈

thornandbriar:

> another reflection of bluebeard - listen on spotify

> in which he is still a terrible man, and you were never an archivist.

> companion playlist to the hole the fox did make.

tracklist, for those without spotify:

01. the labyrinth - javier navarrete

02. i am all i got - the dead brothers

03. the wolf in your darkest room - matthew mayfield

04. aventine - agnes obel

05. the shadows of paris - elsie bianchi trio

06. woods darker than night - cœur de pirate

07. pale white horse - the oh hellos

08. teeth in the grass - iron & wine

09. optician - fernando velázquez

10. you didn’t drink your tea - fernando velázquez

11. what’s he building? - tom waits

12. dark in my imagination - of verona

13. bury a friend - creature feature

14. forever you said - peter gundry

15. all the better to eat you with - george fenton

16. mrs. bluebeard - they might be giants

17. the killing type - amanda palmer

18. wolf like me - lera lynn, shovels & rope

19. the one that got away - the civil wars

20. bernadette - iamx

21. devil’s resting place - laura marling

22. out of the woods - smoke fairies

23. teeth on a string - stick and poke

24. sour times - the civil wars

25. black eyes - radical face

26. fight like gods - chelsea wolfe

27. the wolfgirl - george fenton

28. i put a spell on you - screamin’ jay hawkins

29. criminal - fiona apple

30. me and the devil - soap&skin

31. snake song - townes van zandt

32. hot knife - fiona apple

33. that unwanted animal - the amazing devil

34. dangerflirt mit der schlägerbitch - bohren & der club of gore

35. dead and lovely - tom waits

36. come on over (turn me on) - isobel campbell, mark lanegan

37. want - recoil

2022-01-04 18:24:41 ¶ ● ⬈

thornandbriar:

> the hole the fox did make by carterhaugh.

> Jon meets Elias Bouchard in midwinter, under the strangest possible circumstances.

> They marry in the spring.

> Elias Bouchard/Jonathan Sims, Bluebeard AU. Read on AO3.

part three: where was i, last moonlit night?

2022-01-08 18:14:38 ¶ ●

the hole the fox did make, as a noir film.

2022-01-09 12:17:38 ¶ ● ⬈

thornandbriar:

> the hole the fox did make, as a noir film.

2022-01-09 23:27:25 ¶ ● ⬀ ⬈

polev:

> > “Never mind. I invented you. I invented you, as far as my purposes go. I invented loving you and I invented your death. I have my tricks and my trap doors, too.”

> — Alice Munro, from Collected Stories; “Tell me Yes or No,”
> (via violentwavesofemotion)

2022-01-10 23:45:00 ¶ ●

considering the role of the archivist as an oral and not a written one in the pre-industrial revolution era.

a statement pared down to its marrow-bone essentials is a recording of a certain supernatural event. what the eye consumes is (1) a snippet of history that (2) can be borne witness to and distributed, even if not by or to more than the eye itself and the archivist. it is a true event, but it is also a story, in that it is told and it is subjective to the perspective of the teller.

so: several folk ballads follow a similar format. some of my favourites are the well below the valley (also known as the maid & the palmer), and isabel and the elven knight. both detail individual threatening experiences with the supernatural. the well below the valley is itself about strange, impossible personal knowledge.

the recountings of epics such as beowulf and the völsunga saga also remind me of statements in the loose sense. of their being a preservation of a story through oral repetition. these are fictional events, but the idea of communicating history through song and story is an old, old one. (the marriage of story and event comes, for example, in icelandic sagas which simultaneously legend and record, story-told descriptions of some people who genuinely existed and whose descendants can be traced today. )

and so: I have thought of the archivist not as a paper-ink-scholar, but as a bard, a poet. the liminality of that role. sometimes, the inherent magical associations of it.

imagine:

it is midwinter, and the winter howls with a dead mouth, and rakes snowy fingers across your lintels until your hall is near buried. the candles are lit. wide and dark and full of wine as it is, the fire makes the hall of your liege-lord almost unbearably hot, enough that when you doze you dream of cool ice and snow against your cheek. the shadows slick the gaps in the wooden walls like mould, make strangers of your known ones in the half-light.

there is a knock at the door.

you open it to a man.

he tells you: i am a bard, i have come a long way, i need shelter.

you do not refuse him, even with his strange, reflective eyes, the stare he gives you like he is attempting to hollow you out and examine what is left of you, because it is midwinter and you do not leave wanderers in the snow. and the hall gets (is already) close, and hot, and suffocating, and a bard might lift some of that tension.

so you step back, and you allow him in, and he carries no instrument. and you give him a space by the fire. and a cup of mead. and time, to decide what to perform.

the first song he sings is sigurd, or a fragment of him. and oh, don’t you know this one, nursery-favourite, familiar-worn-cloth-of-story, well loved and prettily done, worth applause and another drink. a few more fragments. a heroic deed. another.

another ballad. not one you’ve quite heard of. not quite unfamiliar either. a good story, a story full of night-running wolves and moonlit shelter. but the bard weaves such intricate loops of the man’s terror, his desperate weeping, the pounding of his heart as he ran, enough that you wonder if this is based on a personal experience. too real. too visceral, for you to be entirely comfortable. the fire flickers, and the shadows lean closer, like they don’t want to miss a word.

the applause still comes. and the congratulations. but different. some softer voiced. some blustering and loud. the bard continues.

this song is a pretty one, two summertime lovers - or it would be, if one had not murdered the other in hopes of marrying higher. it ends with two bodies bones in the river, hair drifting in the current, and what gives you pause is this: the bard sings the town name. and though you’re unsure, you think it might be not this town. not the next one over. but the one beyond that. and you think you do remember your (sister, cousin, friend) saying something about a disappearance, perhaps an elopement, but they never found bodies, did they?

the bard does not name the lovers, but they are never found either.

you are all watching him, now. in the reflection of his eyes is your whole company, town, run upside down and strange in the convex window of his cornea.

his voice is low and sweet as he sings to you of a horror that preyed for a year on the town closest to yours. it is a story you already know. they are events that you, shivering, hoping that it would never come to your town, heard of as they happened. he tells it from the perspective of a man hunted by the beast. when he names the beast guthmundr, the hunter with flat grey eyes and strong hands, the man who appeared dead last spring with a knife in his back and teeth just slightly overlong, yellowed, foaming - you are not surprised.

and then he turns to you. the canines of his eyes hook you. unspool you. the threads of your heart wound around this man’s voice.

here is what you have done, he says, in a whisper like a promise. and he sings to you of the spiders that sit waiting in your bones, of the creature that you met once in a cave, that sang just as sweetly and tangled you inexorably into its web from that day forth, of how she consumed your friend as you watched, terrified, and could not save him. of your dreams of cobweb and dark corner, and your growing hunger.

no one speaks, when he finishes. his eyes are so very hollow. hungry. the man next to you draws his sword.

outside, the storm rages on.

2022-01-11 2:19:16 ¶ ● ⬀ ⬈

fauxhumanskin:

> - Angela Carter, from The Bloody Chamber and Other Stories; “The Bloody Chamber”

2022-01-11 13:53:03 ¶ ● ⬀ ⬈

thornandbriar:

> thornandbriar:

> > considering the role of the archivist as an oral and not a written one in the pre-industrial revolution era.

> > a statement pared down to its marrow-bone essentials is a recording of a certain supernatural event. what the eye consumes is (1) a snippet of history that (2) can be borne witness to and distributed, even if not by or to more than the eye itself and the archivist. it is a true event, but it is also a story, in that it is told and it is subjective to the perspective of the teller.

> > so: several folk ballads follow a similar format. some of my favourites are the well below the valley (also known as the maid & the palmer), and isabel and the elven knight. both detail individual threatening experiences with the supernatural. the well below the valley is itself about strange, impossible personal knowledge.

> > the recountings of epics such as beowulf and the völsunga saga also remind me of statements in the loose sense. of their being a preservation of a story through oral repetition. these are fictional events, but the idea of communicating history through song and story is an old, old one. (the marriage of story and event comes, for example, in icelandic sagas which simultaneously legend and record, story-told descriptions of some people who genuinely existed and whose descendants can be traced today. obviously by far not the only example of this.)

> > and so i’ve been thinking of the archivist not as a paper-ink-scholar, but as a bard, a poet. the liminality of that role. sometimes, the inherent magical associations of it.

> > imagine:

> > it is midwinter, and the winter howls with a dead mouth, and rakes snowy fingers across your lintels until your hall is near buried. the candles are lit. wide and dark and full of wine as it is, the fire makes the hall of your liege-lord almost unbearably hot, enough that when you doze you dream of cool ice and snow against your cheek. the shadows slick the gaps in the wooden walls like mould, make strangers of your known ones in the half-light.

> > there is a knock at the door.

> > you open it to a man.

> > he tells you: i am a bard, i have come a long way, i need shelter.

> > you do not refuse him, even with his strange, reflective eyes, the stare he gives you like he is attempting to hollow you out and examine what is left of you, because it is midwinter and you do not leave wanderers in the snow. and the hall gets (is already) close, and hot, and suffocating, and a bard might lift some of that tension.

> > so you step back, and you allow him in, and he carries no instrument. and you give him a space by the fire. and a cup of mead. and time, to decide what to perform.

> > the first song he sings is sigurd, or a fragment of him. and oh, don’t you know this one, nursery-favourite, familiar-worn-cloth-of-story, well loved and prettily done, worth applause and another drink. a few more fragments. a heroic deed. another.

> > another ballad. not one you’ve quite heard of. not quite unfamiliar either. a good story, a story full of night-running wolves and moonlit shelter. but the bard weaves such intricate loops of the man’s terror, his desperate weeping, the pounding of his heart as he ran, enough that you wonder if this is based on a personal experience. too real. too visceral, for you to be entirely comfortable. the fire flickers, and the shadows lean closer, like they don’t want to miss a word.

> > the applause still comes. and the congratulations. but different. some softer voiced. some blustering and loud. the bard continues.

> > this song is a pretty one, two summertime lovers - or it would be, if one had not murdered the other in hopes of marrying higher. it ends with two bodies bones in the river, hair drifting in the current, and what gives you pause is this: the bard sings the town name. and though you’re unsure, you think it might be not this town. not the next one over. but the one beyond that. and you think you do remember your (sister, cousin, friend) saying something about a disappearance, perhaps an elopement, but they never found bodies, did they?

> > the bard does not name the lovers, but they are never found either.

> > you are all watching him, now. in the reflection of his eyes is your whole company, town, run upside down and strange in the convex window of his cornea.

> > his voice is low and sweet as he sings to you of a horror that preyed for a year on the town closest to yours. it is a story you already know. they are events that you, shivering, hoping that it would never come to your town, heard of as they happened. he tells it from the perspective of a man hunted by the beast. when he names the beast guthmundr, the hunter with flat grey eyes and strong hands, the man who appeared dead last spring with a knife in his back and teeth just slightly overlong, yellowed, foaming - you are not surprised.

> > and then he turns to you. the canines of his eyes hook you. unspool you. the threads of your heart wound around this man’s voice.

> > here is what you have done, he says, in a whisper like a promise. and he sings to you of the spiders that sit waiting in your bones, of the creature that you met once in a cave, that sang just as sweetly and tangled you inexorably into its web from that day forth, of how she consumed your friend as you watched, terrified, and could not save him. of your dreams of cobweb and dark corner, and your growing hunger.

> > no one speaks, when he finishes. his eyes are so very hollow. hungry. the man next to you draws his sword.

> > outside, the storm rages on.

> the crux of well below the valley is the idea of a stranger looking at you and knowing the worst thing that has ever happened to you. that you have ever had to do. that to me seems archival.

and what is possession but something making an instrument of you in much the same way that your voice shivers through you as you sing.

2022-01-17 0:18:15 ¶ ●

##

2,4, 10? <3

answering for bluebeard.

2. Tell us about what you’re most looking forward to writing – in your current project, or a future project.

bluebeard is divided into three sections. so far, it’s been mostly set up. it’s bored me, how much I’ve had to work through, and I’m looking forward to the complexly traumatic romance that I’ll finally be able to write. some of which will be in the next instalment. & also, to begin to weave together the tapestry of plot threads into a strangling web. the bloody chamber awaits.

how the podcast timeline in this alternate universe would play out haunted me for long enough that i have half an epilogue written. there’s a scene within it involving [REDACTED] and the terrible knowledge that you cannot save someone that has its teeth into my skull.

3. Share a sentence or paragraph from your writing that you’re really proud of (explain why, if you like.)

you keep calling me jon / you keep letting me.

not fair, but encapsulates their dynamic in a myriad amount of ways. jon as annoyed and discomforted by the ease of both their conversation and their intimacy, making a token protest to reassure himself that he’s at least tried; elias avoiding accusations and subtly seeing which boundaries he can erode. and they do continue to fall.

10. How would you describe your writing process?

haunted by ecstatic visions.

one: i have a dream / a thought / an image

two: it bores into me until i write it

three: constant redrafting

music is viscerally important, and i’ll write songs for non-fanfiction projects. if a scene calcifies, i will (1) pace up and down monologuing about it (b) imagine it happening and note what is integral to the atmosphere (3) begin from a completely different place / have the character do the opposite to what they’re currently doing. the proposal scene in the third chapter went through all three of these.

a more consistent writing process would help, i think. neurodivergency and writing can be difficult. but this is only what i’ve gathered over a year and a half of writing; time and experience will whittle my process into something hopefully more able to be harnessed.

writer’s asks

2022-01-23 22:48:38 ¶ ● ⬈

cyborb:

> gee jonah how come your entity lets you have TWO boyfriends??

2022-01-23 23:15:04 ¶ ● ⬀ ⬈

woundthatswallows:

> SEPARATION CAN BE A TERRIFYING THING