can’t stop thinking the phrase ‘i have the indexer’s temperament’ to myself because. i literally do. love to read things and go wow i would love to make a comprehensive list of all the occurrences of my favourite subjects and themes <3
more stuff about becoming a god being inherently dehumanizing pls
too much focus on Ascension or becoming Greater not enough focus on what is Lost of you
you’re not a person anymore, just a personification. you’re a concept, an abstraction. all neatly defined boundaries and borders, none of the vagueries or blurring of lines or grey areas that come from being mortal.
you can never change, now. never grow or evolve, you are this, forever, stagnant. and the thing you’ve been made to embody might not even be your best trait.
“constantly changing and shifting architectural landscape” really is one of my favourite settings for a story because it encompasses two similar but distinct niches of existential horror
ALT
illustrative diagram i made to explain my point
a story itself is, of course, both of these at once - you are trapped within a living organism more vast and multifaceted than your own understanding of it can ever hope to contain, and subject to the whims of its architect, the author