Do you think Killua really meant it when he called Gon "number two"? Seems messed up and hurtful that he'd rank loved ones like that. Plus Gon already has abandonment issues so I wonder if he devalues himself more because Killua left. And honestly, if Killua meant that then maybe Gon might be better off finding a new friend.

i don’t think that that thing re: alluka being his number one and gon being second to her is anything more than a joke in poor taste that killua used to cover up his vulnerability. gon refused killua’s help and shut him out when killua wanted to be there for him, so he’s just getting back at gon for this. 

is it a good thing to rank loved ones? nah, but i don’t think killua does that

was it painful for gon to hear that? it sure was

did killua and gon’s relationship have a number of very unhealthy aspects? it did

is it worth working on? hell yes

it shouldn’t come as a surprise that two emotionally inexperienced children screwed up because their relationship was too deep and they weren’t able to handle it. but i also think that burning all bridges the moment you encounter a problem in your relationship is a little bit too close to commitment issues.

gon and killua did hurt each other; what they need to do now is grow up and grow past it, accept the mistakes they made as children and stop punishing themselves for them, apologize and be more mindful in the future. some things are worth fighting for, and considering how big of a part killua and gon have played in each other’s lives, their relationship is very much salvageable and could even grow stronger after they’ve talked things through.