February 2023

I am rlly enjoying a thicker mine for sketches tbh

Some gore studies for my sona

not very anatomically accurate, cuz I didn’t look up any references - mostly messed around with meat texture and just… would call the muscle structure a very artistic liberty sort of take

Combined this muscle study with adaptable work. Honestly really happy with this result, since I feel like I’ve been keeping my promise to myself to put more effort into future works of mine…

muscle rendering is just kind of really nice uvu

selling the design on Deviantart, otherwise ;;

My immune system has been weaker than that of an unvaccinated kid at the scrapyard whats up

Quick art for a friend

Ok so I have been playing Stellaris, right?

I must say, befriending terrifying fanatic militarist empires whose force is one of the largest on the map is just a different kind of dating fr.

I just really like playing big comforting giants in DnD

Trusting that none of the party members follow me here, allow me to share some of my presently favorite characters for self-indulgence reasons

When I find the time I really wanna try doing occasional art for other people - not just friends, but also just like— people whose art I like?? And just in general random people whose content I appreciate.

Been over 4 years since I really did that last and I would absolutely adore getting back into that habit… it’s a very nice way of showing appreciation and sharing good vibes I think

I hate it so much when somebody is actually being unreasonable and mean cuz I spend like several weeks double checking to make sure I am not just being petty cuz my imposter syndrome is just goin “But what IF I am the problem?? I should fix that then–?? I wanna be a good person after all”


The amount of times I double check with friends just like “heyyy Idk if I am getting this wrong but somebody said __ to me? Is my discomfort justified Idk man?”


They are existing and I fuck with that fact

Fuck you.

gay demons.

dappermouth:

Strange roadside buildings where you shouldn’t ever go.

I LOVE your speedpaints!! Will you do more videos?

Awe thank you - I really don’t know if I will tbh, since lately the only completed renders I do tend to be for commission work.

But maybe I will be able to make more in the future! ;; I definitely have caught myself feeling a bit self conscious about video content, since I tend to just have much higher expectations toward myself as of late.

Your art is beautiful. I am especially drawn to your goats :)

Awe, thank you kindly! I am very happy you like them, I hope to be able to post more goat art soon once the game they’re in continues c:

Your art is so good!! I'm getting back in to art after a long break, and I hope eventually my skills are as good as yours!

Awe, thank you kindly - I wish you all the best on your journey and hope you will grow to enjoy your work, no matter where you end up going with it c:

trying to align visuals whilst not overthinking hUMAN FACESAGHHHHHHHHH

Idk what’s up with it but- Is it just me or are people a lot more casual about delaying art trades?


I think the amount of times I’ve agreed to an art trade and watched several years pass by after I had already finished my part-


still respect ya’ll but oml u okay?

They’re just “slightly taller”

The character on the left belongs to Luca, the one on the right is mine uvu

5ft vs 8ft is a funky difference

charlottan:

they should invent a way to talk with mutuals when you never have anything to say to any of them

fffffuck

a hand that wants to be held

unfried-mouth-wheat:

awkwardosthe3rd:

a hand that wants to be held

How wonderful, then, are gloves?

Now this is what I am fucking talking about

What has been the most badass kill any of your dnd ocs has done? 👀

I don’t recall a lot of them, and note I have yet to really get past lvl 9 encounters… and some of my favorite DnD moments tend to be social over combat. u-u

But a recent encounter with an assassin I was pretty proud of, especially since I was accidentally one level beneath every other party member and thus was lacking multi-attack and additional hit points etc.

Playing a paladin with a martial homebrew meant dealing 41dmg per turn - 2 rounds + attack of opportunity when they fled, the enemy had around 200HP, and my character dealt 110 out of the total damage and knocked them out when they grew scared of my character and tried to back out of the fight on like 20HP.

Dealt non-lethal because the party really liked the NPC… but man, denying a little scrawny bastard an escape route cuz they got cocky is a different type of satisfactory. u-u

I have not really played anything other than druid much so far, so getting to play a high-damage dealer like this is hella exciting.

Have yet to try rogue ;;

awkwardosthe3rd:

a hand that wants to be held

All the reblogs to this genuinely surprised me.


This is the first time in a bit that I have made a character post without making the character too obvious, and seeing everyone have their own ideas in response to it is genuinely really fun, I almost don’t want to give context since it may be underwhelming, haha


Very fun to hear everyone’s thoughts and ideas - think there was even a poem somewhere in there… honestly made my day.

Hellou, just here to share the fact I’ll be selling this unused RPG character of mine on deviantart

uvu got a few sketches with the design-

awkwardosthe3rd:

awkwardosthe3rd:

a hand that wants to be held

All the reblogs to this genuinely surprised me.


This is the first time in a bit that I have made a character post without making the character too obvious, and seeing everyone have their own ideas in response to it is genuinely really fun, I almost don’t want to give context since it may be underwhelming, haha


Very fun to hear everyone’s thoughts and ideas - think there was even a poem somewhere in there… honestly made my day.

I need ya’ll to know that this hand was brought to u from the same character

Art below by @rema-rin

Looked at their original facial markings, realized I could do better and… did better? I think

I feel lost creatively.

Like I can draw, bring something down to paper that fills the standard need and whatnot… but it just feels so bland, so uninspired and mediocre… perhaps even too easy, too much like I was just repurposing old lessons or attempting to replicate what I saw elsewhere.

As of late, I have felt any compliments unearned. Been skipping past comments I receive, briefly acknowledging them but hardly deeming them praise, not because they are not kind, but because I worry they are as brief as the work I have done.

I feel like I am taking credit for the work of another, that none of my works are my own and none of them compete with some of the works I see some of my mutuals creating. I feel like I am boring and constantly in need of affirmation.

I want to do something more interesting but no direction has felt quite right yet. Honestly not sure if I am burnt out, pushing through an imposter syndrome or perhaps just thinking about it too much…

man, I would like to be more compelling of a person sometimes, but also I might have just not been getting enough sleep.


Took most of the month off from “work”, mostly due to not feeling ready to tackle it yet. I feel a bit better now, but it did feel intimidating for a while… being scared I wouldn’t know how to place a shadow, or choose a color … all of those things suddenly felt intimidating.

Going to just breathe and keep trying… I’m sure I’ll arrive somewhere soon, just gotta stay optimistic and stop worrying about the tiny things too much.

Tried to have some fun with grayscale sketching today


vaguely homoerotic violence? Idk

Ya’ll rlly aint subtle about wanting to see this type of dynamic in every fathomable way

Hello! Do you happen to post your stuff on Instagram? Would love to give you a follow there!

Hello! Pardon, no I do not post on Instagram… was never really a fan of the layout and format. :‘0

Any social media I am present on I try to make sure to keep on my carrd tho!

https://awkwardos.carrd.co/

Hey there! just wanted to let you know that I'm kind of obsessed with your dog/wolf headed demon ocs. I love your art so so so much and I'd love to hear more about them!!!

It makes me genuinely very happy! They are presently probably up there as one of my favorite characters to draw, so I hope to slowly get around to posting more of them.

They are (technically) my DnD character, meant to be one entity that split into two and each maintaining respective traits that used to complete the other. Somewhat abstractly romanticized demonic stuff yada yada.

The Gamemaster who runs the game is my best friend, so I was very excited to do improv with her playing the other half as an NPC, just seeing how their personalities connect or derail as events affect them over time.

They are meant to be somewhat corrupted gods, not immediately powerful ones, but entities that travel through worlds and got ultimately lost in the Abyss. c:

Those hands you drew look almost picture perfect to something I "gave" to one of my players in our home d&d campaign. I dropped it in the group chat and everyone was like 👀 👀 👀 👀. I put the little story in the tags of the reblog. Good stuff, great show, The Raven Queen is pleased.

Haha nerd

proper sketch page for once

Ya’ll rlly out here making AU’s that deserve a better canon

Hear me out okay

what if we had given them an accurate height treatment– like how we did with Shifu

doe-prince:

Now finished below!

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awkwardosthe3rd:

unfried-mouth-wheat:

awkwardosthe3rd:

a hand that wants to be held

How wonderful, then, are gloves?

Now this is what I am fucking talking about

What the fuck does unfried mouth wheat mean