About Marrow’s resistance and choices

Marrow resists Bhaal and her Dark Urge nature. Yeah, we know we draw her as if she is evil, but no, guys, she has her own way. And not like noble and good way, the resistance works really badly for her actually. In our headcanon, despite all attempts, she sometimes loses control, commits hidden and open murders, waking up in unfamiliar places far from her camp, naked and covered in blood, with the taste of meat in her mouth. Alfira was not her last victim. Yes, Marrow did not kill “plot-important characters,” but the price was just random victims. Innocent and defenseless victims. Sometimes, her Urge is so powerful that she becomes a risk to even her allies in battle, and Slayer’s form in her story is not a reward, but a curse — a form in which she loses all control and attacks everything around her. In the game, it would look like random checks during and outside of combat

On top of all this, she’s got headaches, insomnia, constant hunger, nausea, twitches, and other unpleasant effects to deal with…. This girl lives in angst :’)

And all this struggle isn’t for the sake of heroic deeds or moral righteousness. Her morals are rather gray and questionable, but what she really desires is freedom. Be yourself. Be the person she was in some distant past that she can’t remember, before she became the Dark Urge. That’s her wish for Astarion too — he doesn’t need to be anything more to be strong. And that’s why she supported him to abandon the ritual. They’re both still little monsters, but monsters don’t mean evil

Marrow was on the Druids side. It’s hard to call it a choice. Tbh, she almost refused to help them and would have preferred not to waste time on conflict, but pressure from Karlach and Wyll convinced her not to lose good allies. Her reputation in Act 1 is absolutely terrible and hardly anyone really believes her, so she didn’t want them to turn against. Besides, goblins were too nasty to her and didn’t seem to be the ones who could help. And… you know it’s too hard to resist to stop killing them lol

And we both play! More precisely, one is playing and the other is watching. But we make decisions and choose dialogues together